There was this NICE and sweet female i used to know, back when i was in my early twenties, that COMMITTED SUICIDE!
Gosh! I was truly devastated when i was told that she had decided to hang herself in the bathroom of their house!
I hadn’t known her for very long but we had become close over time, due to the mere fact that we both felt some sense of EMOTIONAL CONNECTION towards each other!( NOT sexual because am a straight female)!
I think it was also the fact that we were in the same youth group at the time (back when i was RELIGIOUS and believed in god and SHIT like that!!) and both enjoyed music!
She was QUIET but very friendly,non-judgmental and liked me for who i was, regardless of my looks! This was UNLIKE the other females in the youth group that HATED me so much out of SHEER JEALOUSY and probably gossiped about me everyday! She was generous,despite her humble background, and helped others when she could.
However, something went horribly WRONG in her personal life! Her parents were forcing her to do things she didn’t want.Her dad was EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE ( like my foster father  was)! I believe her father may have also been sexually violating  her, though she always chose NOT to talk about it! (Gosh! why do BAD things keep happening to good people?……FUCK LIFE!!)
I believe she finally reached a breaking point in her life and decided to END it all!……….She was found DEAD by one of her relatives!
I heard the SAD news the following day and CRIED!……( how i cried! she was the ONLY real female friend i had at the time!)…….
Somehow life seems to keep DENYING me the chance to be with people that TRULY care about me or love me!…..They either die,change to become NASTY or simply get reported missing by the cops!!
Now that i think about it, i should have FOLLOWED the same path and ended it a long time ago!
WHAT THE FUCKK!!!…..TRULY LIFE SUCKS!!!…….IT DOESN’T WANT SOME OF US TO BE LOVED!!!
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Maybe its a sign to be that loving person yourself on and on, even when live changes, people come and go. You make your life. Everything you give comes back in some way.
Life only sucks when you dont take ownership for you own life. Everyone has to, for some its harder than for others, thats just how it is
there’s just how much you can LOVE in life before you realize that NONE of that love comes back to you!
Everyone has their own LIMITS and it reaches a point when you realize that your “love reserves” have DRIED up!……. the much you had, you gave out but since you did NOT get any or very little in return, it eventually wore you out and DRAINED you completely!
I agree and diasgree with this post of yours.
Yes we take charge, but at the same time, many get screwed anyway, beyond their control. Take molestation for example. An adult who molests a child. Can the child take charge? No.
My life is fucked not because I didn’t take charge, but because I was too good to the wrong people.
I was just asked the other day by a good friend why I was given a wife in this life who was evil as they truly come, and more. I was nothing but good to her for 17 years. I didnt have an answer other than I was as cautious as anyone else in a relationship, but I got pure evil.
To sum it up……
The good suffer, the evil prosper.
I am currently in the process of planning my own death, which will take place once my mom dies, and she is 89.
I will have no one left who will care.
Come that day, I’ll be happy and free knowing I’m finally out of here.
you’re right that it is NOT one’s fault that they were nice to the WRONG people!……… In fact, the bad ones ALWAYS seem to come across the good ones and enjoy screwing them over and over again!….
Yes,like i had said earlier, the good ones SUFFER all the time with bad things happening to them recurrently, while the evil ones seem to have better things happening to them instead!
once again….FUCK LIFE!!!
I will also be VERY HAPPY once am done with this life!!
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I’ve been through several – for me, it’s always been someone that I was really close to years ago, but we had a falling out, or just stopped talking for whatever reason, and so the impact has been lessened as a result. But by the same token, there are only a small list of people I’ve ever been attached to for a long period of time – for the most part, I’m just off doing my own thing, trying to avoid entangling myself with anyone else. Life is too complicated already.
So I’d ask… for your friend, were you aware that any of this was happening? Did your friend talk to you about it in any great detail, or was it just a vague impression you had at the time? People in situations like that are put in a situation where they learn that they cannot trust the people closest to them – their immediate family – and so they may be emotionally distant, or prefer to help other people rather than focusing on their own problems, favoring avoidance of even talking about what’s going on in their lives with anyone else. That’s a natural reaction, but in her choosing to kill herself, that’s a tragedy for her that was compounded by a cascade of other tragedies that she silently lived through. My question, then, really, is… would this be life denying *you* of people who truly love you and care about you for who you are? If this is the extent of what life is putting you through, count yourself lucky – there are people out there you may relate with, and you will find them if you seek them out, but shit happens and sometimes it’s hard to understand why or what led up to it, or how you fit in the bigger picture.
But the most important point I could possibly make here is that there are no good and evil people – there are just people, and people make mistakes and sometimes do horrible things for what they may even think are good reasons. Sometimes people don’t even know why they do what they do – it’s just what they’ve learned, and they don’t know how to unlearn it. Nobody wants to be a bad person, though.
You are quite wrong.
There are both good and bad people, and at either extreme.
The vast majority are as you say, but to say that a truly evil person doesn’t exist is not accurate at all, not in the least.
I have experienced pure evil with my situation.
I have known personally 8 people who have all committed suicide by hanging.
One of them was extremely close though.
It’s a long story but she committed suicide on Christmas Day 2009 aged 27. Can you imagine finding your mate for 13 years, hanging in the cupboard on Christmas day, by her own fucken belt? She was a beautiful girl in an abusive relationship, but she wouldn’t leave him. Love killed her you could really say………
Thats really sad.
And love (or lack of) will be what will do me in as well.
It started with the damage my wife has done.
Ture love gives and forgets that it has given and wants to give even more, not many know that, not even what love is. But u probably think that phrase is shit. Anyway im sorry i cant give anymore advice..
Hi PeelASquid
I am familiar with your story, i have been lurking on here for years.
Don’t let your ex wife destroy you, you deserve to live and be happy.
I don’t believe in One God, I believe in 100 billion of them, and your one!