How my drinking comes

Well, I am only 14 years old girl, but I already drink this amazing drinks. Beer, vodka, whiskey… Just almost everything. I started when I was 10 years old, when I started noticing my parent’s problems. And when I started to drowning in depression, my mother started to telling me everything about my father. Everything she told me were lies ’cause my father told me everything about mother. My father was right, my mother always screams and she’s always angry when I say something good about my father.

My mother was calm when I was angry at my father, but when I started to protecting my father infront of everyone,  mother started to do everything against it. She started to manipulate people, make people be sorry for her. But I wasn’t. I was angry ’cause she wanted me to be angry at my father. It was horrible. That night, when my mother was super f*****g angry I just went out to get some drink. And that night everything started.

Next day, I had hangover so I drink another drink. And that went almost one week. Then I stopped for two days. Now I’m drunk almost every night. I need help, I don’t want to drink, but I can’t stop. Everything seems so easy when I’m drunk.