I’m alone. and maybe it’s better this way. I told the guy I’ve been in love with for almost a year now. to leave me alone. I’ve isolated myself from my family. I can’t even find the strength to get up and go to school for the last two days. I don’t want to go back on anti depressants. but I don’t know how to be okay right now. a part of me feels like it’s missing. I said things I didn’t mean but I know they were better to say then try make people understand the truth.
i still don’t want to live. i still feel like running into my kitchen and grabbing all the pills I can and taking them. or grabbing a knife and opening up my arteries to bleed out.
nothings changed except I’m alone.
the people I love have no idea what’s really going through my mind. I just don’t know how much longer I can last through this.
i need somebody. anybody.
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I am “somebody,” I will listen to anything you have to say. You can say it here or you can email me. My login is my email. I would never judge you, I am in no position to judge.