I turned 50 today. My daughter turned 13 today. We ate at the Rainforest Cafe. The waitstaff brought out two cupcakes, each with a lit candle. I was told to make a wish, but none came to mind except, “I wish I would die.”
yes. I wish I could be supportive and say but what about this and this and that and don’t give up on the future …. but I just agree, yes I wish I would die.
Well, happy birthday to you and your daughter! A double celebration is a rare occurrence, yet I am saddened that you wish to leave your own flesh and blood to grow up in a world devoid of the very person who brought her into it.
You need to invest time into this decision, and give your daughter the best possible chance at a future that you possibly can. You may not know it, but I’m certain she loves you more than anything – regardless of her disposition towards you before, right now, and into the future.
You wouldn’t be talking about the Rainforest cafe north of Auckland, would ya?
In a world that sometimes feels like it’s only getting crazier, I actually find something akin to comfort in that. No matter what else happens, there will always be the option of an early exit from the game.
I can’t tell you to go through with it or not, that is your choice to make. Weigh the options, make your decision, and carry on without regret.
I remember when my Dad tried to kill himself when i was about your daughters age. If you care about your daughter don’t do it. She may live on. But she will never be the same. Also you may be 50 and think you have lived a long time bla bla. But you can still find a reason to live. My dad was 55 when he tried to kill himself, and he is doing fine now, 10 years later. Though that is with the help of his psychologist and the right medication. Also if you need a goal to think about. At least don’t commity suicide until you have found inner peace.
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What could the other wish on the other cupcake been.
yes. I wish I could be supportive and say but what about this and this and that and don’t give up on the future …. but I just agree, yes I wish I would die.
Well, happy birthday to you and your daughter! A double celebration is a rare occurrence, yet I am saddened that you wish to leave your own flesh and blood to grow up in a world devoid of the very person who brought her into it.
You need to invest time into this decision, and give your daughter the best possible chance at a future that you possibly can. You may not know it, but I’m certain she loves you more than anything – regardless of her disposition towards you before, right now, and into the future.
You wouldn’t be talking about the Rainforest cafe north of Auckland, would ya?
No, Atlantic City, New Jersey, mate.
In a world that sometimes feels like it’s only getting crazier, I actually find something akin to comfort in that. No matter what else happens, there will always be the option of an early exit from the game.
I can’t tell you to go through with it or not, that is your choice to make. Weigh the options, make your decision, and carry on without regret.
I remember when my Dad tried to kill himself when i was about your daughters age. If you care about your daughter don’t do it. She may live on. But she will never be the same. Also you may be 50 and think you have lived a long time bla bla. But you can still find a reason to live. My dad was 55 when he tried to kill himself, and he is doing fine now, 10 years later. Though that is with the help of his psychologist and the right medication. Also if you need a goal to think about. At least don’t commity suicide until you have found inner peace.