It’s too hard to watch everyone but me get married, travel, do great things. I’m just sitting here, wasting away, working on a business that’s failing hard in it’s first week, and I have no money. Yes, I’ve applied to actual jobs and have been in the long process of a government position. Nothing’s really happening for me. It’s far too depressing. I’ve tried very hard for things to happen. Honestly, I’ve held a few campaigns from DoSomething.org, I’ve started my new business a week ago, hired so many new sales consultants to generate business (so far, nothing despite their 10+ years sales experience), and I volunteer every sunday teaching 2 year olds Sunday School at a local church nursery. I try, and even get to watch others get recognition for the exact same things that I do. I’m invisible and can’t keep living another week like this.
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Trying. It has been a constant word in my life. I feel you. Seeing others do exactly what you do but “succeeding” at it. Making it out there. Seeing results, while for you it seems to get worse day by day. No signs that things will get better. No prove that if you keep working hard you’ll get the recognition you know you deserve. I wished this worked for me, doesn’t mean it cant work for you.
Who do you expect recognition from? I know I’ve made the horrible mistake of expecting to much and pushing myself in order to get I thought was what I wanted. I forgot about myself in the process and I can’t manage to go back.
It sucks to see others getting what you think you should get, have, do. Changing perspective is a hard thing to do, but at least is something and you look like someone who is willing to try. So try, keep trying. I don’t know you, I don’t know your work. But the fact that you managed to overcome some fears and you putted yourself out there is a big thing for me. I’ve never been able to do so.
I hope I can find the strength you found and do so soon. Otherwise I’ll be just another dreamer who didn’t dare to at least try make her dreams come true.
I don’t think you are invisible, but people usually just mind their own life most of the time. At times seems everyone has so much stuff going on that they have no time to share with other people, and building a relationship or bond with others takes time, specially when you’ve already entered the “grown world/work to sustain yourself” stage. Volunteer work doesn’t get recognition often, and the people that do get recognized is usually the ones that do try to stand out, seen it happen a lot, so in that sense i don’t think you should get discouraged by that.
As for your new business… well, i think you should give it more time. I remember someone mentioning to me (when i wanted to start a business) that you have to start it KNOWING that the first months, even the first year, might be a disaster and most likely you won’t get any money in several months, so i’d say a week is really to soon to give up on that.