16 and absolutely hating life. Being in the big wide world having not grasped the aim of it yet……I’ve decided I’m just not made to be here. So, after months and months of contemplating, today I made the decision to try and hang myself . I’ve always thought about killing myself, but never carried out an attempt until today, due to being scared. Scared that if it failed I have to live with the shame from my family. Scared of their reaction.
I used a belt, tied it around my neck as tight as I could, and tied it over a metal bar in the door way of my room. It didn’t really work too well. So I then decided to use a bed sheet. Worked a lot better, the feeling of loosing breath, my head pulsing and eyes bulging out, felt great. Felt almost as if it was going to work. My eyes went blury and the music I put on got quieter (I thought if it was gonna work then wanted to do it listening to my favourite song). I panicked, I don’t know why, so I quickly untied myself.
So attempt number one failed because I panicked and stopped.
Hopefully next time eh!
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Don’t give up on something as wonderful as a life , I don’t no ur story and ur probably thinking I have no right to say this ,but don’t give up keep your head held high, and show people that you are strong .