Its rather nice to see your name around, Distant Road, despite the circumstances that may have brought you back.
I don’t know if my user name is familiar to you anymore, but I always admired the kind words and compassion you gave to the people of SP. I do hope everything changes for the better for you eventually, and I extend my support if you ever need it, like you did for me in the past.
Koji: Thank you… very much. I remember you and I appreciate your kindness. Things are a bit rough at the moment but I’m mindful that I’ve been down this road before. It’s good to see you and I hope you’re doing well. You deserve the best. — M
You all deserve the best and thank you for your comments.
This little mesg has been sitting on my table for a week. I hardly remember writing it. All I remember was I was trying to keep really busy cleaning my house, I went to write myself a quick note about something I forgot and in that instant my momentum stopped dead and this is what came from it.
The funny thing is.. I could almost see my life flash before my eyes in that moment.. Which is probably why it says what it says
He’d obviously stolen that from FMJ but his delivery with that one phrase would have you gulping like a camel downing an entire bottle of Coke in one go (true story).
That was my immediate thought upon seeing this note. Make of it what you will. Oh, and hello to you distant.road. It’s been awhile. I hope everything goes well, for all of you.
Dude, i’ve had moments just like that. Trying to stay busy while trying to block out something i didn’t want to deal with, and as soon as… well i don’t even know how to describe it, but it’s like… you’re going going going and then you have to pause or stop, even for just a moment, for whatever reason, and it’s like BOOM, like all that shit just comes rushing back out of nowhere and Hits you… and it’s like being overwhelmed by sudden discouragement… like the pride and confidence and motivations you were consciously trying to maintain, just suddenly falls apart, and there’s nothing… and you’re fucked. And sometimes you can kinda shake it off and resume what you were doing, but other times it kinda stays that way for a little while, and it’s hard to get it out of the way and stuff it back in its little box so you can keep carrying it. Or, you just drop it and leave it where it is, and sort of bitterly ignore it for a while.
I’m obviously using second person to relate my experience of what i think might have been similar experiences. I just never ended up writing it down like in the picture. lol. I haven’t written anything meaningful in an analog medium in quite a while.
No you are correct..it was like boom a week ago and I haven’t been able to shake it since. It really sucks.
I never would have thought that my biggest problem could be to have all this room..but nobody to liberate it. …ok I kinda stole that from temple of the dog! lol
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We all are my friend, but you’re not alone.
so am i
I hear ya, RT30. Welcome to my world.
Its rather nice to see your name around, Distant Road, despite the circumstances that may have brought you back.
I don’t know if my user name is familiar to you anymore, but I always admired the kind words and compassion you gave to the people of SP. I do hope everything changes for the better for you eventually, and I extend my support if you ever need it, like you did for me in the past.
Take care.
Koji: Thank you… very much. I remember you and I appreciate your kindness. Things are a bit rough at the moment but I’m mindful that I’ve been down this road before. It’s good to see you and I hope you’re doing well. You deserve the best. — M
You all deserve the best and thank you for your comments.
This little mesg has been sitting on my table for a week. I hardly remember writing it. All I remember was I was trying to keep really busy cleaning my house, I went to write myself a quick note about something I forgot and in that instant my momentum stopped dead and this is what came from it.
The funny thing is.. I could almost see my life flash before my eyes in that moment.. Which is probably why it says what it says
“Unfuck yourself”. -CPL D, circa 2013.
He’d obviously stolen that from FMJ but his delivery with that one phrase would have you gulping like a camel downing an entire bottle of Coke in one go (true story).
That was my immediate thought upon seeing this note. Make of it what you will. Oh, and hello to you distant.road. It’s been awhile. I hope everything goes well, for all of you.
Dude, i’ve had moments just like that. Trying to stay busy while trying to block out something i didn’t want to deal with, and as soon as… well i don’t even know how to describe it, but it’s like… you’re going going going and then you have to pause or stop, even for just a moment, for whatever reason, and it’s like BOOM, like all that shit just comes rushing back out of nowhere and Hits you… and it’s like being overwhelmed by sudden discouragement… like the pride and confidence and motivations you were consciously trying to maintain, just suddenly falls apart, and there’s nothing… and you’re fucked. And sometimes you can kinda shake it off and resume what you were doing, but other times it kinda stays that way for a little while, and it’s hard to get it out of the way and stuff it back in its little box so you can keep carrying it. Or, you just drop it and leave it where it is, and sort of bitterly ignore it for a while.
I’m obviously using second person to relate my experience of what i think might have been similar experiences. I just never ended up writing it down like in the picture. lol. I haven’t written anything meaningful in an analog medium in quite a while.
No you are correct..it was like boom a week ago and I haven’t been able to shake it since. It really sucks.
I never would have thought that my biggest problem could be to have all this room..but nobody to liberate it. …ok I kinda stole that from temple of the dog! lol