Anyone affected by my death,forgive me…
First of,I want to clear the fact that this is not an impulsive action.
I have been thinking about taking my own life for a long time now.This is NOT an impulsive decision.
I have tried to get better,but I failed…Only choice I got left is to start a new life…in the
afterlife…
I have tried to make people understand how I feel.Nobody cared.I guess I am a pathetic idiot,so there’s
no wonder people would not care.I mean,who would care about someone as pathetic as me?
I have tried to be a better person,and I failed.I failed as a son,I failed as a student,I failed as
a friend,I failed as a lover…I failed at everything…Death is the only choice I got left.All other
choices have failed for me…
Again,anyone who is affected by my death,you have my sincere apologies…I am sorry I couldn’t do
more for you when I was alive…
…I was screaming,but nobody heard me.I was crying,but nobody saw my tears.I was dying,but nobody
saved me.My ”friends” left me to die,and this is when darkness,self-harm and suicidal thoughts have
become my true,loyal friends…They would never leave me,and I enjoyed every minute spent in the
dark.I enjoyed every new cut I’ve carved onto my flesh.I enjoyed every idea of suicide I got…
I am not human.I am a completely different being.Your selfish,hypocritical race disgusts me.You are
nothing more to me than pieces of shit inside the toilet.Do not act as if you are sorry for me after
I die,because you didn’t give a fuck when I was alive.I want you to hate me.I want you to sodomize
my dead,bloody corpse in anger and frustration.I want you to feel rage because you are not able to
torture me anymore.But rest assured,all of you who are responsible for me evolving into this stage
I am right now,you shall all get your payback once I ascend to the other realm of existence.
To the few people in my life that actually honestly tried to make me feel better(you know who you are),
all I can say is I’m sorry I didn’t live up to your expectations.I’m sorry that,despite all the help
you offered me,I still died by my own hand.I will miss you and your honest help…Forgive me…
2 comments
Nobody can judge you if this is your final decision. It’s your life . I hope you’ll be happier wherever you’re going:)
Survivors of suicide say that if you commit suicide, hell/ death is more of what is torturing you now. Give your life to God…Jesus, and he will make the way for you to relieve you of this.