there’s not much to be jealous of, she’s fit and slender she’s at college doing and learning what she loves she’s gotta job she’s got friends falling over themselves to hang out with her she’s a functioning member society. im the exact opposite of her. no she’s right there’s nothing to be jealous of.
idk its just really messed with me today and i just feel like im going backwards. i purged for the first time in a long time, just like that it feels like all the progress i made is just gone. idk im just feeling really mixed up rn.
I am sorry your sister is so thoughtless. I’m certain she would be hurt by such a flip comment. The good thing (if there is something good about this) is that you acknowledge the hurt. It can be so much worse if you deny to yourself how something that hurts you feels and talking about it is the best way to begin releasing it.
On another note, I’ve never been attracted to the uber-thin model type. I’ve always preferred softness and curves (and intelligence) over bony hard-bellies with attitudes.
your right it has helped being on here and talking about things im glad i found this place especially since what i was looking for when i found it could of ended up with me very much not breathing. this site i think might of saved my life that night, talking about it saved me.
thanks man but um? i don’t think I’ve got any photos up? as far as im aware i don’t know you?how could you think im remotely sexy?? thanks anyways though man.
Hey E, sorry to hear about that buddy – she should’ve been more sensitive but that’s people for you, they often don’t think about the effect their words might have.. I understand what its like to look in the mirror and realize that youre not as thin as you used to be – when it happened earlier this year it completely threw me I became distraught. I gave up anything with sugar in it and all fatty foods straight away to get myself back in shape, still haven’t given up the diet I’m scared of putting the weight back on.. Looks shouldn’t matter but it can be such a blow to the self esteem, it sucks.
On a similar and funny note though, when I was on sertraline after about a month it had caused noticable breast growth, I was standing in front of the mirror looking at my reflection trying to work out what was different – after a minute or so I realised I had boobs that had gone past an A cup size! I called my boyfriend through to try and reassure me, and his comment was “oh its ok, at least theyre smaller than my mum’s..”
People eh?
yea people are. i don’t think she meant to be cruel its like she can’t process when shes being insensitive she’s the same way with everyone.
i think it was just a bit of a blow because id recently just started eating around them again where as before i could only do small portion on my own if anything at all. i hope your managing to stay healthy and safe with your eating as best you can.
I’ve known alot of people like your boyfriend in the sense of that kind of humour its that kind of person that can get you through the tough times 🙂 im glad you’ve got someone like that to helpyou out 🙂
but yea people need to be a bit more mindful sometimes
@E Couldnt agree more, they should teach mindfulness in school. Preferably instead of Christian Education.. oh wait, I meant Religious Education – easy mistake to make there.
I understand why it hit home so hard you finally thought you were in a good place and your bubble got burst like it was nothing. It sucks man. One thing I learnt is you have to be careful dieting, if you diet too hard your body goes into starvation mode and as soon as you start eating again you just put weight on like nobodies business. You have to fool it by eating a decent amount but with next to no sugar or fat. And no snacks or comfort food 🙁
I’m doing good thanks matey, eating a decent amount most days, just not drinking any sugary or fizzy drinks, no sweet or fatty treats, just salads, lean meats, nutrient supplements and craptons of hummas. Hummas for the win dude, if you make it yourself you can slap it on wholemeal bread or even better ryvita and eat so much of it and never put on a pound, tastes nice, its cheap and real healthy too. Just dont put Tahini in it. Tahini tastes like peanut butter with old cigarette ash in it, its grim. Why would anyone put tahini in their hummas? why?!?! Im getting off topic though lol
Hehe yeah hes got a good sense of humour my bloke does, we’re an odd couple and we’re going through a hard time at the moment, still a bit pissed off at him at the moment for cutting up his engagement ring and throwing the bits away when we had a fight recently but its good to have someone there for you ready to help out. I really love him though sometimes I’m not sure why <3 though next time he can damn well get on his knee and propose, I aint doing it twice 😛
i totally agree with the religion thing we need mindfullness more than an imaginary friend or two 😉
its crazy how it seems your living in my head? you explain things im thinking and feeling so easily you’ve hit the nail on the head everytime 😮
thanks for all the tips they ll be put to good use 🙂 (cigarette ash peanut butter?? oh my sounds gross Haha)
shame you’re going through a rough patch. i think your totally right he should make the effort for you this time 🙂 sucks that he’s been crazy to you lately. ihope everything works out for you one way or another 🙂
not a problem mate really, if you fancy chatting more whenever feel free to email me poppysmoke@gmail 🙂 just in case you ever need or want to chat privately. obviously only if you want to 🙂
Yeah dude we definately seem to have a load in common don’t we? Its creepy, like you’re my long lost twin or something lol 😉
Seriously though I’ve known you for what? A day or two? And you already seem like a good friend, I genuinely care about you man.
Thanks about my relationship, we’ll get there I’m sure, we’ve survived worse.. Its definately been a challenging and intense few years together 😛 and damn right he’s going to make the effort this time he’s going to ask ME if I’ll make him the happiest man in the world!
I was going to ask you if you felt like chatting in private some time, its crazy how we seem to think the same things?! I’ll drop you an email when I get back from the doctors tomorrow 🙂
Now its time for Mr Bunny and I to get some sleep, take care dude, sweet dreams 🙂
it is a little creepy 🙂 long lost twins is a definite explanation Haha. yea its been two days now and i feel the same i don’t think I’ve never connected with someone so quickly anywhere before let alone online .
its good to hear you think you’ll work through it 🙂 i hope you do too man , but whatever happens im here for ya no doubt 🙂
it is crazy Haha :)hope your appointment goes well! message me how it goes 🙂
g’night Hatter, g’night Mr Bunny 😉 you too man take care of your self and sweetdreams right back at ya 🙂
i appreciate the sentiment i guess man. a bit hard to understand at times but i get it. she wasn’t trying to be mean. she just doesn’t know how to process what she’s saying.
We have cultural and language differences and we don’t all make sense all of the time, but the spirit here is that you deserve better. It starts with loving yourself first. I know it’s not easy – I really know that but I hope that you can try. Pleasant dreams ;o)
thankyou you really are very good with words something comforting in them 🙂 im trying to love myself and i won’t stop trying, there’s people i gotta look after here. i can’t look after them if i can’t look after myself can i? i didn’t sleep long this morning but i did sleep well, thankyou 🙂
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Or jealous
there’s not much to be jealous of, she’s fit and slender she’s at college doing and learning what she loves she’s gotta job she’s got friends falling over themselves to hang out with her she’s a functioning member society. im the exact opposite of her. no she’s right there’s nothing to be jealous of.
idk its just really messed with me today and i just feel like im going backwards. i purged for the first time in a long time, just like that it feels like all the progress i made is just gone. idk im just feeling really mixed up rn.
Guys like woman with a shape anyway
i appreciate the sentiment, but im not a female, easy enough a mistake to make though don’t worryabout it 🙂
I am sorry your sister is so thoughtless. I’m certain she would be hurt by such a flip comment. The good thing (if there is something good about this) is that you acknowledge the hurt. It can be so much worse if you deny to yourself how something that hurts you feels and talking about it is the best way to begin releasing it.
On another note, I’ve never been attracted to the uber-thin model type. I’ve always preferred softness and curves (and intelligence) over bony hard-bellies with attitudes.
your right it has helped being on here and talking about things im glad i found this place especially since what i was looking for when i found it could of ended up with me very much not breathing. this site i think might of saved my life that night, talking about it saved me.
I think your sexy
thanks man but um? i don’t think I’ve got any photos up? as far as im aware i don’t know you?how could you think im remotely sexy?? thanks anyways though man.
Maybe he just thinks the tone of your voice is sexy 😉 mmmmm….
Oh wait he cant hear you either.
Ok I’m at a loss..
Haha that makes two of us 😉
Lol
Hey E, sorry to hear about that buddy – she should’ve been more sensitive but that’s people for you, they often don’t think about the effect their words might have.. I understand what its like to look in the mirror and realize that youre not as thin as you used to be – when it happened earlier this year it completely threw me I became distraught. I gave up anything with sugar in it and all fatty foods straight away to get myself back in shape, still haven’t given up the diet I’m scared of putting the weight back on.. Looks shouldn’t matter but it can be such a blow to the self esteem, it sucks.
On a similar and funny note though, when I was on sertraline after about a month it had caused noticable breast growth, I was standing in front of the mirror looking at my reflection trying to work out what was different – after a minute or so I realised I had boobs that had gone past an A cup size! I called my boyfriend through to try and reassure me, and his comment was “oh its ok, at least theyre smaller than my mum’s..”
People eh?
yea people are. i don’t think she meant to be cruel its like she can’t process when shes being insensitive she’s the same way with everyone.
i think it was just a bit of a blow because id recently just started eating around them again where as before i could only do small portion on my own if anything at all. i hope your managing to stay healthy and safe with your eating as best you can.
I’ve known alot of people like your boyfriend in the sense of that kind of humour its that kind of person that can get you through the tough times 🙂 im glad you’ve got someone like that to helpyou out 🙂
but yea people need to be a bit more mindful sometimes
@E Couldnt agree more, they should teach mindfulness in school. Preferably instead of Christian Education.. oh wait, I meant Religious Education – easy mistake to make there.
I understand why it hit home so hard you finally thought you were in a good place and your bubble got burst like it was nothing. It sucks man. One thing I learnt is you have to be careful dieting, if you diet too hard your body goes into starvation mode and as soon as you start eating again you just put weight on like nobodies business. You have to fool it by eating a decent amount but with next to no sugar or fat. And no snacks or comfort food 🙁
I’m doing good thanks matey, eating a decent amount most days, just not drinking any sugary or fizzy drinks, no sweet or fatty treats, just salads, lean meats, nutrient supplements and craptons of hummas. Hummas for the win dude, if you make it yourself you can slap it on wholemeal bread or even better ryvita and eat so much of it and never put on a pound, tastes nice, its cheap and real healthy too. Just dont put Tahini in it. Tahini tastes like peanut butter with old cigarette ash in it, its grim. Why would anyone put tahini in their hummas? why?!?! Im getting off topic though lol
Hehe yeah hes got a good sense of humour my bloke does, we’re an odd couple and we’re going through a hard time at the moment, still a bit pissed off at him at the moment for cutting up his engagement ring and throwing the bits away when we had a fight recently but its good to have someone there for you ready to help out. I really love him though sometimes I’m not sure why <3 though next time he can damn well get on his knee and propose, I aint doing it twice 😛
Thanks for caring mate 🙂
i totally agree with the religion thing we need mindfullness more than an imaginary friend or two 😉
its crazy how it seems your living in my head? you explain things im thinking and feeling so easily you’ve hit the nail on the head everytime 😮
thanks for all the tips they ll be put to good use 🙂 (cigarette ash peanut butter?? oh my sounds gross Haha)
shame you’re going through a rough patch. i think your totally right he should make the effort for you this time 🙂 sucks that he’s been crazy to you lately. ihope everything works out for you one way or another 🙂
not a problem mate really, if you fancy chatting more whenever feel free to email me poppysmoke@gmail 🙂 just in case you ever need or want to chat privately. obviously only if you want to 🙂
Yeah dude we definately seem to have a load in common don’t we? Its creepy, like you’re my long lost twin or something lol 😉
Seriously though I’ve known you for what? A day or two? And you already seem like a good friend, I genuinely care about you man.
Thanks about my relationship, we’ll get there I’m sure, we’ve survived worse.. Its definately been a challenging and intense few years together 😛 and damn right he’s going to make the effort this time he’s going to ask ME if I’ll make him the happiest man in the world!
I was going to ask you if you felt like chatting in private some time, its crazy how we seem to think the same things?! I’ll drop you an email when I get back from the doctors tomorrow 🙂
Now its time for Mr Bunny and I to get some sleep, take care dude, sweet dreams 🙂
it is a little creepy 🙂 long lost twins is a definite explanation Haha. yea its been two days now and i feel the same i don’t think I’ve never connected with someone so quickly anywhere before let alone online .
its good to hear you think you’ll work through it 🙂 i hope you do too man , but whatever happens im here for ya no doubt 🙂
it is crazy Haha :)hope your appointment goes well! message me how it goes 🙂
g’night Hatter, g’night Mr Bunny 😉 you too man take care of your self and sweetdreams right back at ya 🙂
let them wait
didn’t read it some boby hurt you
im sorry? i don’t understand what your talking about sorry? could you explain what your talking about?
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E she not right get it pleaser and still thinks she hates you
i don’t understand what your saying?
I don’t understand but I do
your sister is rubbish TELL HER WE DONT FLY slut/easy JET
you fly were you go A lover in the bed room and slut to but don’t hurt on body cause i’m hot
youhot
just don’t take no shit from her
i appreciate the sentiment i guess man. a bit hard to understand at times but i get it. she wasn’t trying to be mean. she just doesn’t know how to process what she’s saying.
thankyou for the most part i guess 🙂
Hey I couldnt understand either bro.. but thats the spirit – when in doubt, take it as a compliment. Best attitude to have 🙂
yea agreed otherrwhys id be confused till i fell asleep
We have cultural and language differences and we don’t all make sense all of the time, but the spirit here is that you deserve better. It starts with loving yourself first. I know it’s not easy – I really know that but I hope that you can try. Pleasant dreams ;o)
thankyou you really are very good with words something comforting in them 🙂 im trying to love myself and i won’t stop trying, there’s people i gotta look after here. i can’t look after them if i can’t look after myself can i? i didn’t sleep long this morning but i did sleep well, thankyou 🙂