Sometime I wonder how much more pain can my heart handle? When will I ever be the chosen one to die? They say God has a plan for all of us, but God… is this your plan for me to suffer and suffer until the day I cannot bear it anymore?
I just want to die. I don’t want to feel anymore of this pain.
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I’ve been unable to believe in God for decades. But that doesn’t mean He/She/It doesn’t exist. I would love to believe that there is a cosmic plan for each of us. It’s also a nice thought that “God never gives you more than you can handle”, but the thousands of suicides every year sorta disprove that theory.
Like you said, we can only bear so much pain. I gave up searching for God a long time ago. But if you still have some faith, that’s worth holding on to. I know so many people whose lives suck, but they have faith and it keeps them going. That’s worth something. If you belong to a church, maybe try talking to a priest? They don’t always have answers but at least they’ll listen.
Maybe when you do have happiness, you will be able to appreciate it
Maybe i shouldn’t comment on this (since i’m at an awful state of mind and i’m not the religious type), but i’ve always had the impression that it’s really difficult for a superior force (god) to really give sense or coordinate a meaning of life for several billions of people at the same time without causing them to conflict with each other.
That’s why i’ve come to terms with the fact that no matter what, if you don’t give your own life a plan you won’t have one, no matter how much you believe in god or how much it seems like other people are given a purpose in a mystical way.
As for how much pain one can handle… hell, i feel like i’ve handled several times more than what i thought was possible for me so i can relate (and i guess that many here feel the same)… hopefully you’ll get some happiness eventually, to drive a bit of that pain away.