Honestly

I’m not what you’d call suicidal. I don’t wish I was dead every day or think that the world would be better off without me. Personally I just need SP because it’s the only place I have found where I can express all my fucked up feelings and emotions free of judgement. If I’m not active on here or I don’t read all your shit and comment on everyone else’s shit I’m sorry, it’s because I come here to let out my own personal demons not to drown myself in everybody else’s.
Yes, thank you if you read my stuff and comment on it, I actually do feel better knowing I’m not the only one feeling how I do, yeah sucks for you but it’s nice to know I’m not alone in hell on earth. Just know I’m not here to fish for sympathy or to bring anyone down I just have shit I need to get out of my head.
If you want to die, okay. But I don’t. I’ve seen what suicide does to families. I’ve experienced it first hand, so no, I don’t want to die because even if I don’t feel loved I know I am and my death would devastate the people I love. I don’t want to die because I can’t let them down like that. I may fuck up a lot but I can’t remove myself from the equation permanently.
If you want to die, more power to you, I can’t stop you even if I wanted to. So again, I’m just here because I really fucking need people that don’t bash me for being fucked up.
The world won’t be a better place without us. Eventually the people grieving us will be okay again they will smile when they talk about us and laugh about the good times and the world will go on as usual so thank you for letting me explain my horribly screwed up views on here.
Thanks,
Just Another Fuck Up…