I hope that is not true. I do hear you though. Tonight I am far away from wanting life. But I don’t want death either. I don’t want to die feeling this feeling of despair. So I trudge on… hope we both (and all here) can get to a better side of this journey.
thought u said you didnt want me to call? i’m sorry, i took you literally…..i’m an idiot, an american, and an over apologizer…..and yeah, a bit of a *****….i’ll own that….
We’re all going to die soon. If you compare how long the earth has been here, the lifespan of a person is relatively nothing, and yeah, i know it’s a stupid thing to say, but it’s the first that got through my head (sorry).
I do understand the feeling tho… growing up i always believed i would die young, and lately it feels like i’m way past over my expiration date (i still have 2 years according to my “younger me” predictions tho)… but maybe it’s just that, a belief. If you have a hard time going through life and desire death for long enough, i guess it’s just a matter of time until you start feeling like “it’s my time, it’s coming soon”. Maybe it will, maybe it won’t… but hopefully you’ll get some needed change for the better instead.
hey whispy…i dont mean to come off as insensitive towards the original “post-er”……but i wanted to ask you, how have you been fairing as of late? this may be too forward, please forgive me if it is, i hope, even though our knowledge of each other is quite limited, that you hopefully realize i mean no harm….but you strike me as a “survivor” of something…..whether it’s the unscheduled passing of someone close to you, or some instance that occured by you hand, intentionally or not, that makes the burden of guilt weigh heavy upon you, and by helping others is your way of sortof makin up for it…..i may be totally off the mark, please correct me if i’m wrong…..i was justt wondering
I am a survivor of lots. The usual story…abusive home, abusive system, streets, failed relationships, death of a guy I loved (illness), health issues of my own…and all the assorted crap that comes along with those things like nightmares, scars, anger etc. No I don’t have a guilt complex. I try to help people here cause it feels like its the right thing to do not because I’m guilty and making up for something. Is it really so hard to believe that a person can be kind and compassionate without a reason?
As for how I’m fairing…today has been a real fucked up day for me but I’m not dead yet…*shrugs* haven’t decided yet if that’s good or bad.
i’m so sorry. i didntt mean to imply you had a guilt complex…..although reading it thru now i can see how it might’ve come off as that….sorry, i was out of line….it’s just you seem like a truely good person, and being the shitty person i am, i have a way of just assuming it has to be some form of self supplication…..wanna talk bout the fucked-up’dness of yer day? just like you, probobally gonna be up for quite some time
Not really keen on talking about it but ty for the offer. However, there is something else I’d like to ask you about. Willing to email? Thewhispersofmysins at hotmail dot com
most definately….i’ll even admit i’m honored you’d make such a kind invite towards me……corny, i know, but honesty is a fault i’d really like to possess, so i’m working on it
I’ve had that feeling multiple times, but I’m still here. And quite happy.
Give yourself a chance, you’re one and only, noone else is like you, don’t deprive yourself of the chance to explore your originality.
We’re all the greatest in our own ways.
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I hope that is not true. I do hear you though. Tonight I am far away from wanting life. But I don’t want death either. I don’t want to die feeling this feeling of despair. So I trudge on… hope we both (and all here) can get to a better side of this journey.
bad heart huh
hey
heyheyhey still waiting for my phone to ring *picture of skeleton*
thought u said you didnt want me to call? i’m sorry, i took you literally…..i’m an idiot, an american, and an over apologizer…..and yeah, a bit of a *****….i’ll own that….
We’re all going to die soon. If you compare how long the earth has been here, the lifespan of a person is relatively nothing, and yeah, i know it’s a stupid thing to say, but it’s the first that got through my head (sorry).
I do understand the feeling tho… growing up i always believed i would die young, and lately it feels like i’m way past over my expiration date (i still have 2 years according to my “younger me” predictions tho)… but maybe it’s just that, a belief. If you have a hard time going through life and desire death for long enough, i guess it’s just a matter of time until you start feeling like “it’s my time, it’s coming soon”. Maybe it will, maybe it won’t… but hopefully you’ll get some needed change for the better instead.
I hope you don’t.
hey whispy…i dont mean to come off as insensitive towards the original “post-er”……but i wanted to ask you, how have you been fairing as of late? this may be too forward, please forgive me if it is, i hope, even though our knowledge of each other is quite limited, that you hopefully realize i mean no harm….but you strike me as a “survivor” of something…..whether it’s the unscheduled passing of someone close to you, or some instance that occured by you hand, intentionally or not, that makes the burden of guilt weigh heavy upon you, and by helping others is your way of sortof makin up for it…..i may be totally off the mark, please correct me if i’m wrong…..i was justt wondering
lol ur notorious for off topic commenting…u need a goal or you’re off the rails anywhere and everywhere
I am a survivor of lots. The usual story…abusive home, abusive system, streets, failed relationships, death of a guy I loved (illness), health issues of my own…and all the assorted crap that comes along with those things like nightmares, scars, anger etc. No I don’t have a guilt complex. I try to help people here cause it feels like its the right thing to do not because I’m guilty and making up for something. Is it really so hard to believe that a person can be kind and compassionate without a reason?
As for how I’m fairing…today has been a real fucked up day for me but I’m not dead yet…*shrugs* haven’t decided yet if that’s good or bad.
i’m so sorry. i didntt mean to imply you had a guilt complex…..although reading it thru now i can see how it might’ve come off as that….sorry, i was out of line….it’s just you seem like a truely good person, and being the shitty person i am, i have a way of just assuming it has to be some form of self supplication…..wanna talk bout the fucked-up’dness of yer day? just like you, probobally gonna be up for quite some time
Not really keen on talking about it but ty for the offer. However, there is something else I’d like to ask you about. Willing to email? Thewhispersofmysins at hotmail dot com
yeah, i emailed u 2x….it’s Thewhispersofmysins@hotmail.com right? y dont you try emailing me quartney_stack@yahoo.com
@kills; care to expand upon that thought? whaddya mean by that?
most definately….i’ll even admit i’m honored you’d make such a kind invite towards me……corny, i know, but honesty is a fault i’d really like to possess, so i’m working on it
did u get mu email?
Cathy I didn’t get your email. Try again?
think she meant me, cuz she had emailed me whispy wasp
expand? like ur gigantic potbelly u catfisher? i think i get ur obesity now. and no obv i was jokin.. call me u weaselish hoequeen
Maybe but she also, just above that, said she would most definitely email me but I haven’t got anything. So hopefully she will retry 🙂
trust me u dont want her emailing you.. its a slippery slope (;
no i didnt mean u….sorry 4 any confusion
I’ve had that feeling multiple times, but I’m still here. And quite happy.
Give yourself a chance, you’re one and only, noone else is like you, don’t deprive yourself of the chance to explore your originality.
We’re all the greatest in our own ways.
in a sylvia plath/nitzsche we’re all sort of dying…right??
potbelly is outta the shirt u fat balding miscreant — refer to my email