i hate this
i hate not being able to do it
i hate feeling my limbs shake and spasm and still having enough strength to stand
i like the release of blacking out but i hate not being able to breathe
last push coming soon
ready for this
hoping when i pull the plug i’ll just swirl away down the drain
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“hoping when i pull the plug i’ll just swirl away down the drain”
There’s something beautiful about that thought.
I think there’s some part of you, a guardian angel, an evil twin, who knows, that won’t let you die. You’ve been close to death many times and lived to talk about it. Maybe there’s something you’ve left undone… that’s what I tell myself every time. There’s something I need to do before I’ll be allowed to kill myself. Fair enough, says I. I’ll try a few things and kill myself later.
Sorry, I don’t seem to be making much sense today. I just think your death would be a terrible waste at this particular time. I haven’t gotten my copy of your novel yet.
Ya, you know who’s playing the role of your guardian angel Matt?? You guessed it. Marsh. Why? Cause Luke Skywalker is a role he’ll never get to play.