i focus on the pain, the only thing that’s real
it’s been 5 years since i last marred my pale skin,
gave it some bloody color
i sat there and cried
only knowing one thing for sure,
knowing i dont wanna know.
i sat there and smoked through 2 marlboro black 100s
pressed against me
flesh bubbly like a teenager high off their first crush
and when the light on the tip of my smoke started to dim, almost going out,
i’d take it away, take a hard pull, breath in the horror deep and slow
and then push it back against me,
harder than before.
i think i might be ready to go now
5 comments
Great song! NIN! Be well, believe for every few bad days there is a good one:-)
yeah it is a good song, i prefer the original to cash’s version, although i’m a huge fan of johnny; hurt? trent barely can compete against the almighty cash….a few of my favs are sunday morning coming down, when the man comes around, bridge over troubled water /w fionna apple or the man in black….all great songs…..i recommend him to everyone, regardless of their musical palates…music is very therapeutic for me, words are such paltry things, yet somehow they swell up, grow fuller, behind a melody. i am an idiot, i can barely speak my native tounge, let alone commit a cohesive thought to paper……so it seems to me meaning becomes more permeable to the masses when strung together by the clef and the staff…..they wont let me post music here, i used to if i thought a particular beat might bring a body comfort in regard to a specific qualm or ailment; but i was told that’s not what this site is about……i’m still a bit bitter about this; it has somewhat soured me from this site……it hurted my feelangs :(@spadmin
Be strong, some days really suck but every now and then there is a good one. Weather we like it or not, every second were closer to the end! Born £ raised, 37 year old long islander destroyed by my motorcycle but I wouldn’t change a thing, life is very different, difficult and disappointing but whether I do it or “shit happens” the end is inevitable so I hope you try to appreciate the time you have!!! And that’s coming from a dude with a .38 next to me at all times, with the temptation all the time!!! Either way it will end. Be well hun:-)
BTW, music is Fukin mint, try to enjoy it rather than embellish on life’s shortcomings. Smile, smoke a J or something but if you choose otherwise I still and always will support your decision to do what you wish with YOUR life!!! Good luck (not that I’m superstitious) just figured its the right thing to say to a stranger!!!
god has the type of humor that i think can accurately be described as dark; at the very least it is an acquired taste; at it’s worst he has a morbid sence of humor and every day he dares me to live through “this” ……there is a plethora of empirical evidence that will prove that committing hypothetical and spiritual homicide against a fear that only resides in the mind is much harder than killing a reality