I just realized that the only thing that took my sadness away are drugs or alkohol. I guess now for almost 3 years there was barely a day I was completely sober. Now that I am I don’t feel any difference to when I wasn’t taking anything. Well maybe I realized it earlier. I did try to do breaks to not be “high” every day but I couldn’t take it somehow. I guess I’m an addict… And this really shocks me I never expected to get addicted to anything. May sound stupid but that’s how you get addicted you close your eyes and just go for it no matter what. Maybe I’ll try doing a rehab although I already tryed one. Or I’ll just give up. But for now I’ll resist as long as possible.
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That’s so awesome. I was on drugs or booze since 18, and it takes some time to stop craving, plus you just think wtf do i do now for fun. I wish you lots of luck 🙂
Thanky you:) may I ask you how long it took to stop thinking about it?
I have the same fear @jennjenn. I’m scared of what i’ll turn to instead of alcohol to get that feeling I crave and love…
Don’t give up. The only thing you’ll be giving up on is yourself.. And who is more important than you?
I started with drugs, stereotypical weed, hallucinagines, x, meth, coke shooting coke. Trust me, I know thats fucking VILE. Idk about anyone else, but I always thought banging is for addicts. Anyways, I started drinking to quit drugs. With addictive personalities, unless you’re a strong mf, i think you just trade addictions. I quit cutting to exercise to a ridiculous extent, like 3 hours, plus run two miles.
I don’t know exactly when that feeling stopped. Gradual I think. Now when I do want it drink, i just remember, it doesnt really make you feel better, cuz you black out in the end. Idk where you live, but kratom and kava are common here. Del ray has the most rehabs in the country. I drinkalot of kratom, its expensive as hell, but it beats lq. I drank hardcore for a long time, and im sure youre familiar with the “it’ll never happen to me” mentality. My best friend died at 26, from alcohol withdrawals, I’ve had several friends have seizures, and I care not to share my bs again. If you’re going to keep drinking, be careful. If you quit, please don’t go cold turkey. Detox said they would give me meds, they did, after i blew zeros, after i had a seizure in my room.
God damnit, can one person learn from anothers mistake?
Yeah If this was possible nobody would have any problems. I can pretty much relate to what you’re saying. But I guess I won’t stop I already gave in I wasn’t even thinking about it maybe I should first get rid of everything but it’s difficult to get the motivation to change everything
40 days… Like blessthefall?
Don’t give up. Keep pushing for something better. You’ll get there. Addiction is one hell of a beast to tame, but you can do it. Try to Have a little more faith in yourself.
Yes like blessthefall 😉
You, sir. You have magnificent taste in music.
As well as yourself;)
Of course. ^-^ thanks.