Im done. I just dont have the courage to end it and it frustrates me. I am just numb to the world and every day that passes just makes me feel less human and more numb. I am lonely but seem stuck this way as i seem unable to connect to anyone even at the most basic level. Socializing seems so foreign, it feels fake. I am tired. I was raised catholic and any faith i had has long since eroded. I wish it were just this one thing but it is not. It is a million tiny little things that just tells me i was never meant to be here. I guess the divine stops listening the second you ask him to please kill you in your sleep.
I wish there was a place i could go to just have it end. A place you show up, they book you a room, give you a drug, you go to sleep and never wake up. They ship your remains back to your family with a note written by yourself explaining everything. It should just be easier than this to choose to leave this world. At the very least it should be a personal choice without the noise of people, government or anyone else. Let the people who want to stay inherit this world have it, let me choose to go.
If it were only that easy.
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Thanks for saying a lot of the things that many of us here agree with.
It would be so much easier if what you describe was actually real. What a relief that would be. It’s not enough to have to deal with depression every second of every day, you have to deal with the extra stress of coming up with a viable way to end it all.
And people call it the “easy way” out. Ridiculous.
Out of Phase ,
I’M SORRY, your another victim and not alone, Yeah, nobody going to let you go, that’s your job, people are afraid it goes against the law of survival, I agree it would be nice, but that would be humane, I myself am so…… depressed, I wish I could change things, in my case it a race against time, I lost! I have no more dreams and can’t see a reason to carry on, I don’t feel the same about young people. young people can change things put up a good fight, if your young do just that!
Hi 🙂 I was wondering if you wanted to talk together? I can tell you really need a friend, and I hope to be that friend for you 🙂 my email is andrewholstein1@gmail.com
and my kik is Kalmahavak
I hope to talk to you and be friends 😀 I can tell we both can use this friendship.
I also wish we had the freedom to choose