Have you ever felt so shitty that you would do anything to be able to leave?
I can’t be the only one. If someone pointed a gun at my face and asked if I wanted to die I wouldn’t even hesitate. I feel like disappearing I hate breathing honestly. I’ll be gone soon. Very soon. It’s the only option.
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know the feeling exactly. i actually threw away everything i had that could be used for self defense because in a life or death situation id probably just let the person kill me.
Exactly. I hope a life or death situation comes my way because I certainly don’t want to be here.
You’re not the only one. I find myself saying “this has got to end” almost every day.
Same. But for some reason there’s always something holding me back. I like to tell myself that it will get better soon, but we all tell that lie to ourselves at some point.
This is where we come to wrestle the worse of our thoughts, emotions, and relationships.
This is where someones final words were, will be, or won’t be. The possibilities are endless and the choices are few and far. Live or die, we really don’t have a choice. Me, personally, I’d say I owe death my life.
If you don’t mind me asking what started the feeling of not caring about what happens to you? Did it start out the nowhere are u battling anything? I understand that feeling completely! I think we all have days like that.. It’s always nice to talk to someone who understands tho so please if u would like to talk more don’t ever hesitate you are not alone on here 🙂 I know it’s hard but stay strong!
It all started when my best friend left me. I know friends don’t last forever but it felt like we were going to last forever. Then, my parents started treating me like shit. Something happened between me and a boy and I loved him. I still love him. Then he left me. All these people who have been leaving me were my lifeline. Now I’m at a loss. I don’t know what to do. Before all of this happened and my life was okay I still felt like this. Like I don’t care what happens to me. I tried killing myself twice. When life was okay, and when life wasn’t. The second time I tried was two weeks ago, but unfortunately I was unsuccessful.
And thank you. It is very hard but I don’t think I can stay strong.
when I joined this site…many of the post or the feelings people write seems to be same like me…why?….depression makes every brain feel the same crap???…like a disease…I know that every disease is curable but not when you are at the last stage..
I know how you guys feel. Been on the verge of ending it all for many, many weeks. Scrapped old method that was impossible for me. Gonna use new method. Soon. I hope it works and I can end this nonlife I’ve been forced to live for the past 16 weeks. Time for me to go bye-bye. When your life is over, what’s the point of still being alive?
There is no point of being alive. We are all born into a life we don’t want. And it only gets worse from there. Everyone dies at some point.. some just die a lot sooner than others.
My bestfriend left me too. Except he was a boyfriend so more than just a friend. I planned my whole life with him we broke up a month ago and were together for 6years so I get you. You feel like you have lost everything I’m at that too. I grew up fast without my parents and as of right now my only “support system” is myself. It’s hard Bcuz when you feel like your parents don’t care and your significant other or friend becomes ur only support then one day leave u completely.. It feels so unbearable… I understandable why you feel this way I don’t like that u do but I get it I’m not perfect I’ve been were u are 90% of my days, I want u to know ur not alone tho if no one else cares know I do I’m here with you. It’s gonna be a battle and it hurts and I know u don’t want to be here, but u deserve too be! Give urself time to heal and be fair to urself. try to find some other guidance maybe a counselor? 10% of me still wants to be here as much as I say I don’t I know somewhere I do Bcuz I don’t want to see the ones I love hurt now my supports system sucks and I’ve been thru hell most of my days but the people that have caused that and the things I’ve heard or anything I’ve been put through those things don’t deserve to win, I want to win. I want u to win the right way. I know u may not but I can see there’s something in u too Bcuz u want ur voice heard and that’s why your on here. I want to help, Bcuz I know ur pain, hope you reconsider everything. Don’t be afraid to respond with your opinion, speak your heart out.
This was all my fault though.. I tried to fix it but it doesn’t make it any better. He hates me and never wants to peak to me. All the time in the corner of my eye I see him looking at me. Sometimes I just want to run up to him and hold him and just say that I’m sorry.. but that wont do anything I don’t want to be here anymore.
Or call them and tell them u just want to hug them u just want a hug from someone.. I know i too made a mistake with my significant other. We all do at some point but we learn from them that’s why those things happen.. I too wish for those thing ur wishing for. I would try and tell him your sorry tell him how u feel.. Always speak what’s goin on in ur mind Maybe you can Become friends with him. It will take time, everything does unfortunately but it is possible anything is! Taking your life won’t fix anything tho and it definately won’t bring u any closer to him hugging you. I know we all deal with things in our own way and in the end we will ultimately make the choices we want to make. And that’s fair as long as it’s really what u think is best for urself.. Suicide is never whats best for ourselves it’s just the depression and stress talking to us so I hope u find another way to be fair to urself, like take a walk FOR URSELF. Try yoga FOR URSELF. Eat a candy bar, watch ur favorite tv shows be lazy for once, go shopping get ur hair and a facial or get a massage Things that will make u feel better do for YOURSELF. Bcuz those are what’s fair for you! Treat yourself and your body don’t wreck it. You will meet somebody that can make u completely feel better. Know exactly what makes u happy and show u what life has to offer though it will start with that being you first you will find more purpose if you hold on and try more. Hold on tight and remember you matter a lot. <3 you matter to me. Hope u keep posting letting us that care for u know what's going on thru ur mind. We all deserve someone to hear us out.
I try to tell him how I feel but he really doesn’t want to hear it. I made one mistake.. he made many and he acts like he did nothing wrong. But I guess it wasn’t meant to be. Your right everything does have a reason behind it. I do have reasons for what I did. I don’t just do things because I feel like I wont get caught. I do it because I have to. Nobody will understand. And thank you <3. I hope things work out between you and your significant other. We all need that one special person..
Maybe it’s too soon then, my ex was like that too he didn’t want to hear anythjng from me especially if I talked about us.. He would get angry with me.. So hurtful I know, When u love someone they should care the same way back but you can’t always tell if they do that’s the tricky thing about love. Also he made more mistakes than me like the person ur describing it’s so unfair I know Hun. Give it more time and try to build a friendship a positive one. Every conversation u get to have with theese ppl make it a positive one. . That’s the best thing u can do to try to fix any of the relationships that have fallen apart. Remember whatever we feel in the moment is impossible is always possible, just like how u can get out of this feeling just like YOU can become something so successful it will hurt to not look at you. “impossible” your saying? How bout u read it to urself break it up and say it this way (I’m Possible) 🙂
I never get to speak to him that’s the thing.. but that made me feel so much better. Thank you so much I love you c:
Much love for you, dear. I hope it gets better for you soon. xx