I don’t know what to do anymore, there is this strange part of me that wants to die, kill myself, have someone kill me, just DIE.
But .. the thought of death scares me. Where do you go ? Is there a Heaven is there a Hell ?
Where is this ‘ LORD ‘ when I need him. I want to believe, it’s just so hard .. I know the devils real. I feel like he’s everywhere. He’s the blade that cuts me, he’s the alcohol that takes over my mother. The fist of my father. He’s the urge to die.
” Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the LORD my soul to keep … ”
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I know this feeling. I had a thought right before an attempt. What happens when you die? Is it all black? Do I still go to heaven after this? Is there really a heaven and hell? What if it’s all some crazy dream and i get reborn? Sooooo many questions.
I already feel dead. I don’t remember the last four days because of all this anxiety and anti-depressants medication i’m on. That’s no life to live, why would the Lord let us suffer like this ?
I feel the same way. Its scary not knowing where we go after we die our will to die is so strong that when the moment does come I doubt that will be running through your head . Stay strong !