My story is a long one, but after suffering years of abuse as a child at the hands of my father, I left home and joined the military, but I didnt deal with the trauma I suffered I just got into drinking and internet gaming and conspiracy theories, and gradually retreated further and further into isolation. Fast forward 8 years and I am without friends, and I am unemployed and my family has rejected me. Even a woman I thought I was in love with has rejected me and she is the only person who I thought I had as a friend. Now I am becoming suicidal and considering hitting the road, traveling and camping, but I am too much of a ***** and I am scared of that life. I just want to die in my sleep and go out the easy way, but I often think about killing myself and I know it will be nice to be free of human existence, at least as my existence has been.
It is pretty sad when your own family rejects you so completely, as well as your friends. I am some kind of loser
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You are not a loser. You didn’t choose the life you were given. You didn’t choose to be abused. Tons of people have left your life, but it doesn’t mean you have no worth or value. No one can take that away from you. I’m sorry all of this happened to you, and I’m sorry that you are unhappy with who you have become. I do not think you are defined by the title of your post though, or by the hobbies you have taken up.
I don’t know about you. I can only speak for myself. When I think about my life and think deeply and honestly there is not one thing that I did not create. If I’m alone and without friends now, it’s because I chose this. I pushed people away. I create my own reality. That’s just the way it is. This is good news!! If I’m alone because I made choices that makes me alone, then I can make opposite choices. I’m in control. I create this reality.
Hi man, you are not a loser. Trust me, no one understands how you feel other than yourself. And I know it seems easy to feel like there’s no hope but there is always a chance you can turn your life around. I’ve overcame some obstacles in life and you can do it too. If you ever need a friend or someone to talk to. I’m all ears 🙂