I feel like a half person. I feel totally incomplete and fake. I am living life, waiting for the next day, waiting for happiness. I feel so fake. I am at a job that hasnt really started yet, all we’re doing is training. And i feel like everyone there feels things, has energy. I want that. And im in a relationship where i feel selfish because im not sure i actually want him, i think maybe i just want a person to listen to me or to talk to. Im in love with my buddy who i hook up with sometimes and who loves me but not in a romantic way. I hate this feeling of emptiness, of superficial livlihood.
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“Call me morbid, call me pale I’ve spent six years on your trail Six long years On your trail” — Half a person, Smiths
Sorry, the title immediately made me think of this song. Great tune to help me wake up I guess…
I’m not that great when it comes to giving love advices that actually work, but my only suggestion would be dropping both of them and starting over. If your friend doesn’t love you back and you’re not sure if you want your significant other, I guess that’s the best option.
Good luck