Toxic

Words that have poisoned me

Saying I shouldn’t be

Shouldn’t be like this

There’s no reason to

Reason to do what I do

It’s been the same for years,

Telling what I don’t want to hear

Telling me to get through on my own

So unknowing, you were ignorantly bliss

While I fell into an abyss,

You, who still filled me with lies, such ugly lies

Look me in the eyes,

There were toxic things you said.

This was your influence

I never thought this way,

Not until you said toxic words to me every day

Those hurtful things, I have heard them,

Since I was but a little girl, and seemingly

You have denied the truth laid before you oh too clearly

You did not believe me to be like this even when I told you

Not anything less than your Little Miss Perfection

But believe me when I say I can never be her, and you should have known,

Because I am me, and me alone.