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No_one_care,

When I was younger I believed whole heartedly in love and fairly tales, I listened to people around me who themselves didn’t have a clue, it took years of having my heart broke and yes I broke a few myself, I’ was no angel! I was selfish and learning to become a good person, now I’m an angel! Matter of fact this Christmas I’m going to stick myself at the top of the tree, not going to tell you where I’ll stick myself, butt, get it? If you notice Have to joke around because that’s how I learned to survive, it’s part of my real life defense mechanism. To help you I’m going to try to be honest and as forth coming as possible, no feels good crap from me. The world and people within it isn’t and never will be even close to being perfect.

“Sorry for writing again.”

Don’t be sorry something is bugging you were here to help you, it help us to reply and help you and it helps ourselves, we all have different ways of doing that, I’m a little harsher than others, I apologize for that, it’s my style and I mean well.

“I just gotta know when will the tears stop running down my face whenever i am alone.”

I got to be honest I never cry? Wish I could but I do feel sad if that any consolation? Ok I get a little teary eyed! 🙂 but if you want to stop feeling bad stop thinking of what’s making you feel bad think of something else, change the channel.

“I just gotta know when will i finally find peace”

Oh boy this isn’t easy! So many questions! Your really a handful! 🙂 how about never! something will always bother you unless you have a lobotomy, which I wouldn’t suggest, accept that things will always be un peaceful, you just have to go with the flow.

“I just gotta know when will i accept that things…for me will never get better”

Well whether you do that now or tomorrow is up to you, accept things as they are and I hope things for you get better for me too!

“I just gotta know when will i get the same love i give out”

Oh for the love of god! I still have 4 questions to go!!!! Love is like a slot machine you put in money and lose!!! Your possibilities of getting you money back are against you! But once in a while you may hit the jack pot! You can’t win if you don’t play.

“I just gotta know when does mg pain end”

A redundant question!!
How about never something will always bother you unless you have a lobotomy, which I wouldn’t suggest, accept that things will always be un peaceful, you just have to go with the flow.

“I just gotta know how many times i am have to get on my knees begging for your help”

As many times as you like, but try to take the best help and make it work for you, we don’t enjoy that your suffering , we want you to not suffer, that’s why we are here.

“I just gotta know how many pills should i take the next time”

I don’t like this one! I said I’d be honest! You see I have everything ready for my exit, and trust me if I do it I will disappear! It’s all right here 20ft away from me! If I do it, that’s it no next time! I’m like that very thorough, don’t know what to say?

“I just gotta know when will it all be over”

Finally last question! Of course one of those open ended questions! It will be over when the fat lady sings, But simply put, it will be over when your dead, me too and the rest of us! But here’s the catch, if you change your way of thinking life can be more bearable, remember once it’s over that’s it, I say stick around some may argue with me but once your dead you feel nothing you know nothing, feeling sad and feeling happy are something you will only feel while your alive, embrace the pain and the laughter, for that is something you will never feel again, having no feelings or thoughts will be quite peaceful, peaceful like forever! Hey it’s only a hundred years tops, try to enjoy it best you can.

i hope you feel better we all want that, don’t live in a dream world! live in the real world.