I hate this feeling honestly, but no one in my family knows where I’m coming from.
I wanna leave my home, but i have absolutely nowhere to go. My family hates me. I think my mom truly regrets having me. Im the familt fuck up and it hurts me just thinkimg about it. I believe that everyone around me would be more happier with me out of the picture. I wanna do it so badly. I dont want to breath anymore. I want to be somewhere i hopefully will never feel pain again. This world hurts me too much. I just- I just stop believing the world is kind now. I just want what most people have. A loving family that actually carez for everyone, not my family who hates me and only me. My mom loves my eldest and younger brother, but she doesn’t love me in the same way she loves them and it hurts me so much. I am tired of their emotional abusive, i want out of this so i can escape them and their harm. I am just tired.
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why do they hate you ? can’t you get a job?
You won’t be with those people forever. Given that they hurt you so much, I hope you stick around long enough to see what life is like when you’re no longer living with them. I believe you’ll be able to find somewhere else to go. You shouldn’t have to die to escape your family.
There are a fair amount of decent people on this planet, as well as those who are cruel and those who are indifferent. All types coexist, so the world can’t be composed of simply one group. Maybe you need to meet more of the kind people. I know there’s quite a few of them here.
You can’t choose the family you are born into, but you can survive to make a family for yourself, one where you can be happy. I know that death is not the only way for things to change. I hope you are able to realize that too. It’s awful that you’re hurting this much.