i want to die. why cant i have that privledge. im old. let me go. ive nothing to live for. let me go. why hang around for nothing and no one. let me go. PLEASE?!
its lack of method. im done with in-exact methods. i need an absolute method…..(not sure im allowed to say)…. but i dont have what i need. if i had what i needed for it to be an absolute way, i’d be gone. no on cares about me. my BPD keeps me from being in the “normal” range 9as i call it). just want out. to be gone. but i cant obtain the sure way i need to do this.
I probably know vaguely what you mean by an absolute method. I would ask why you can’t obtain it, but that’s probably too much detail and it’s unimportant. Do you think you’ll be able to at some point? If you felt that people cared, would it change anything?
yes, if i had decent, unconditional love, DaiLY,then yes, it MAY make a difference, but having never had this, nor seeing it in my future…as im nearly 50 y/o….i dont see it ever happening and dont see it worth hanging around and waiting to see…for what? absolutely nothing.
i’m in a dark place. i feel so painted into a corner…w/o any hope. what do i do when i dont have hope? (rhetorical)
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What’s stopping you from dying? Is it lack of a method, fear, survival instinct, disability, family?
its lack of method. im done with in-exact methods. i need an absolute method…..(not sure im allowed to say)…. but i dont have what i need. if i had what i needed for it to be an absolute way, i’d be gone. no on cares about me. my BPD keeps me from being in the “normal” range 9as i call it). just want out. to be gone. but i cant obtain the sure way i need to do this.
I probably know vaguely what you mean by an absolute method. I would ask why you can’t obtain it, but that’s probably too much detail and it’s unimportant. Do you think you’ll be able to at some point? If you felt that people cared, would it change anything?
yes, if i had decent, unconditional love, DaiLY,then yes, it MAY make a difference, but having never had this, nor seeing it in my future…as im nearly 50 y/o….i dont see it ever happening and dont see it worth hanging around and waiting to see…for what? absolutely nothing.
i’m in a dark place. i feel so painted into a corner…w/o any hope. what do i do when i dont have hope? (rhetorical)