You know princess, for me, all I need is one friend, one human in this world who will grab my hand before I pick up the gun. That is all I need sometimes. I’m so glad you have this.
@seesmith: historically I am not an open book as you see here online. I keep my cards extremely close to my chest. IRL few know this side of me and I would argue no one knows the extent of it. I just open a can of crazy here and it feels so damn cathartic. IRL I have had once or twice a friend figure out something was afoot and either force me to see a Dr. or just sit with me while I got blind drunk for three weeks straight in a desperate attempt to sort out my shit.
Didn’t have all that great coping skills to tell the truth. However, and this is just me speaking here, I find that this site, including all the diverse personalities, to fit this need I didn’t know I have. There are people here, yourself included, that are so much different than me yet there is a part that clicks. Even the angry ones who post that they want to die, or that we all should STFU and stop supporting them, the ones that are one minute away from just ending it and the ones who tried to end it three hours ago and now feel like failures. All of you, without exception, have saved me, each in a small way. You are all a puzzle that I have been slowing putting together at the giant table I sit at daily.
I’m here to listen until they admit you. I’ll be checking in all day long. When do you think they will admit you? Have they given you a firm admission date?
not yet, they need to make sure where i go is accommodating to my disability, nothing is going to happen over the weekend, but i have people check on me everyday, maybe next week sometime i hope. I fear i will just keep attempting. any little thing tips me over the edge
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That is awesome! Both that you are still here AND that you are getting help.
i asked to be admitted
Princess I know this is hard for you, asking for help and being admitted. I am here to support you and am really happy you are still with us.
I’m really happy for you, recently did the same thing!
Good luck to you when you go to hospital. 🙂
Good luck to you.
Wow. I wish you great success in learning effective coping skills. You’ve made a huge life-affirming choice. I hope you find peace AND joy AND love.
Don’t be a stranger! Let us know how things turned out.
of course i will, you have all been so supportive, and i have made a friend too
You know princess, for me, all I need is one friend, one human in this world who will grab my hand before I pick up the gun. That is all I need sometimes. I’m so glad you have this.
*A* FRIEND???? As in ONE???? But… But… I thought all of us were your friend.
:'( Boo hoo hoo! Blughaha whaa whaa *cough* *cough* *snif* :'(
i didn’t quite mean it like that, that was bad wording, i do apologise
@seesmith: historically I am not an open book as you see here online. I keep my cards extremely close to my chest. IRL few know this side of me and I would argue no one knows the extent of it. I just open a can of crazy here and it feels so damn cathartic. IRL I have had once or twice a friend figure out something was afoot and either force me to see a Dr. or just sit with me while I got blind drunk for three weeks straight in a desperate attempt to sort out my shit.
Didn’t have all that great coping skills to tell the truth. However, and this is just me speaking here, I find that this site, including all the diverse personalities, to fit this need I didn’t know I have. There are people here, yourself included, that are so much different than me yet there is a part that clicks. Even the angry ones who post that they want to die, or that we all should STFU and stop supporting them, the ones that are one minute away from just ending it and the ones who tried to end it three hours ago and now feel like failures. All of you, without exception, have saved me, each in a small way. You are all a puzzle that I have been slowing putting together at the giant table I sit at daily.
Thank you.
@princess. LOL! Seesmith is a silly guy isn’t he?
thought i had upset seesmith, Lev has been talking to me a lot
Princess, I’m glad you’re ok. Good luck with your experience at the hospital.
i hope it doesn’t take too long
I’m here to listen until they admit you. I’ll be checking in all day long. When do you think they will admit you? Have they given you a firm admission date?
not yet, they need to make sure where i go is accommodating to my disability, nothing is going to happen over the weekend, but i have people check on me everyday, maybe next week sometime i hope. I fear i will just keep attempting. any little thing tips me over the edge