I really ought to be festive this time of year.
But my moods are getting me down. Literally
I’ve made a plan for January. Once Christmas is over. I will try to kill myself again.
I can’t do it before now. Because it’s too close to Christmas. As much as I don’t care I still care about how my family feel. I can’t have the anniversary of my death this close to Christmas every year.
But January would give them time to feel more detatched from it by that time next year.
I think I’ve found a more permanent way of doing it this time.
I just need somewhere to write this all down. Because I can’t really talk to many people about it. My social worker is lovely but I am just another case to her. Someone to be replaced once I am dead.
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Same, im going to kill myself with CO when christmas and the new year is over. I honestly do feel bad for my family, but i just dont want to do this any more. I’m not even that depressed at the minute, its just that life holds no joy for me, and i’m so bored. Good luck with dying.