I don’t know what to do anymore. If I do what I’m told, people disappointed at the outcome, if I don’t do it, they are still disappointed. If I do it properly, exatly how they told me to do it, they are dissapointed I didn’t do more. If I do a little extra, they complain and say I should have let someone else do it or should have done even more. Are people ever satisfied that I suffer just to try and keep them alive or able to support their family?! I’m I just that freaking pathetic?
I always hated that word. Pathetic. I would always strive so I wouldn’t be that but lately, with working long shifts at work, stressing if my family (or who I consider to be family) would except me for me and having to take care of people who dislike me. What do I do? Just say “Fuck you guys! I’m out!” Or I could always stay in this limbo for another 5 years when I’m legally an adult, or just disappear with out a trace? What do I do?! I’m so tired of being lonely, unable to talk to anyone with out then thinking I’m crazy, tired of not being able to talk to someone at all and able to trust them.
Sorry for my language and all the switching off of topics. Bad thing of mine.
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Well this is human, can’t do nothing about it.
This is family life if your family is nagging, and even if, what tasks do they give you ?
And why do their lives depend on you ?
Can you explain in more detail what is going on ? We can’t help if it is too vague
They give me whatever they don’t want to do which is almost everything that doesn’t give them an immediate reward. I pretty much run half our family business which is what they rely on. Sorry I didn’t explain well, didn’t really think about it. Was just upset at the moment.
I want to help if I can, sometimes I dont understand what im reading. But i so relate on striving to be anything but that word. And here I am.
Thank you for wanting to help me. Makes me feel little better knowing that. Thank you.
I like the idea of trying to cram 27 marshmallows into my hot cocoa this morning. One of life’s dilemas, aside from marshmellows in hot cocoa is how to deal on a daily basis with the living. Its tricky and I’m not so good at it today. That was absolutely no help was it?
You did help. Thank you. Made me scare my family though. ^^