Your words eased my pain in my time of need. I missed visitation with my son again today. Partly because of my reactions and anger.
Sorry to my parents that I’m angry. My family was taken from me and you’d rather judge me for my faults than be happy that I toughed out this loneliness as long as I did. I miss my son, and I miss my pug.
Sorry, I guess I’m just a coward, but I give up. I hope you’re all proud of what you’ve done.
Loaded Sig Sauer P250, hollow point 9mm Luger round, aiming for the roof of my mouth/tonsils, wish me luck. This ends tonight.
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Do you remember last year when I asked you to write a entry for the book I had asked SP to help me make for snuf? And you did. With no hesitation you made that entry. Anytime he gets close to ending it he reads that book and finds hope. That’s what you did….you gave hope when it was needed. That’s the kind of person you are. That is the kind of parent your son needs. You can be that strong. It is hard but you can make it through this. The world needs good people like you. Your son needs you. hugs. Please reconsider. You can email me anytime.
I needed this. I hope(?) I can return the favor sometime. I will update after inpatient. Thank you, twoms, I will not forget this.
Love and hugs,
DH
PS – Charlie looked great in all his Christmas glory. Please give him my best.
Please do update. And Charlie says hi. Do you know cat wheels are a thing? Extra large hamster wheels. Charlie isn’t too thrilled about that but instead of losing weight, like in his last years resolution, he gained! The vet says he weighs 30 pounds. I think that catnip gives him munchies….he eats the cat food, the dog food, and all the human food he can get his paws on. Except mcdonalds lol. Apparently even he has standards. Anyways…. hugs. Take care. Email anytime.
Please please please don’t. Please live for your son. Please live for yourself. For us. At least wait until tomorrow. Everything is better after sunrise, I promise.
Thanks for your concern and encouragement.