Because nice days always end. And I’m not built for this life. This is me getting to do what I want, in my own time, in my own way…and lets be honest, life does not work like that. Plus, my hurts, it always does, even on nice days like this. It hurts. And there is nothing that takes it away. Now, I never have to know pain again of any kind. That I feel anything at all right now to begin with. I’m just….numbly calm.
Looks lovely I read the comments hope the journey is peaceful iv been numb for ages now but I haven’t got the courage to try again and wind up in hospital again that sucked
Been in the nut house. Still remember that all too well…I wasn’t even scared, I was so numb. I just walked through it and waited for my time to be up. I did meet a dear friend there and we still talk on a regular basis.
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Looks good. Looks like your having a good day. Keep it up. The pic looks like your about to go for a walk on the clouds.
I guess, I kinda am when you think about it.
Are you really going to kill yourself today?
Yes, I am. After the day had gone and the sun as set…and I get to see the moon and the stars rise…yes. The very simple answer is yes. I’m ready.
If you can have a nice day like this, what is stopping you from doing this for the rest of your life?
Because nice days always end. And I’m not built for this life. This is me getting to do what I want, in my own time, in my own way…and lets be honest, life does not work like that. Plus, my hurts, it always does, even on nice days like this. It hurts. And there is nothing that takes it away. Now, I never have to know pain again of any kind. That I feel anything at all right now to begin with. I’m just….numbly calm.
Looks lovely I read the comments hope the journey is peaceful iv been numb for ages now but I haven’t got the courage to try again and wind up in hospital again that sucked
Been in the nut house. Still remember that all too well…I wasn’t even scared, I was so numb. I just walked through it and waited for my time to be up. I did meet a dear friend there and we still talk on a regular basis.
How are the waves today?
They waves where good..I’ll tell you all about it in my next post.