Today in class I tried brushing the topic that I could be suicidal and depressed, and I was talking to a friend of mine, and he was like “I hate her, she pisses me off, she makes me want to kill myself.” And after he said that I looked at him and was like, “first off the fuck bro?” and “Don’t say that, because you don’t mean it, there are people in this school who actually want to leave this earth for good and you saying that doesn’t help anything. Try not to say it anymore, okay?”
I basically had to tell him that like three fucking times before he was asking why I kept saying it, and “that it shouldn’t matter to me because I wasn’t like that”.(He was talking about me as the I and me) I finally just said to him “How do you know I’m not suicidal and depressed? you don’t know me outside of school really.” And he had the audacity to fucking say “I know your family, so I know you aren’t going to.”
Like are you fucking serious right now?!?! He fucking said that to me and I was honestly shell-shocked. He said he knew my family so he knew that I wasn’t. Sorry homey but depression runs in my family and I guess it didn’t fucking skip a generation this time.
I’m sorry for all the f-bombs, but today has been a really bad day, aside from this incident, and I needed to let off a little steam and I guess that involved cussing through the internet, and to be honest it actually worked a bit. Sorry again for this post, it’s basically me just rambling about non-sense, just carry on and just skip this because it is actually pretty pointless. Have a great night/day though.
6 comments
This isn’t pointless. This kind of stuff is important.
And I don’t blame you for being pissed. That would’ve pissed me off too.
Thank you for saying that, it makes me feel better knowing some people actually care, even to a stranger like me 🙂
Don’t be sorry your friend sounds like a jerk . how is he gonna know how you feel , he’s not cuss he is scared to think about it.
He is a big jerk-wad, but what are you gonna do? friends are only temporary, well to me anyways
Are you sure he doesn’t mean it?
And “I guess it didnt fucking skip a generation this time.” sorry but that cracked me up x)
I honestly don’t know if he means it or not, but I always hate hearing other people saying stuff like that even if I also say it to myself, you know it’s like you don’t want others to feel that why so I was just thought by saying that I could help a little. 🙂 it’s fine if you laughed, now that I read it again it makes me chuckle too.