How can my mind get any better when there is so much negative experience constantly happening. I remember before my first bouts of depressions and I wasn’t normal then. Me at my best wasn’t enough for me to have a good healthy life, why would me after all this struggle be any good? I want good enough then, now I’m beyond bad
My goals are simple now, I just have to have the courage or order a couple of things. Just wish it was cheaper
Just do it and don’t look back
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I’m not going to say “it gets better” because I’m no magician, and I don’t see the future. But I think that there are some good things now, in the present, that you should consider. I can only talk about my own personal experience, and even though I’ve been wanting to end it all since I was 15, I can assure you, for the last ten years, every day I found something worth living for. My depression, my anxiety, my dad’s death, all my panic attacks, they can’t take away the soft caress of my mom, or the brilliant intelligence of my 3 years old nephew. I swear, he surprises me everyday. I keep discovering songs and books and yeah, it may sound vain, to say “I’m still alive because I need to read Catacomb, by Madeleine Roux”, but is a reason for me. Find yours. Or have mines, meanwhile. i can update you on my nephew obsessions with dinos and you can read the Asylum saga by Roux (you will love those books).
I’ve been here for the past 8 years and I can tell you those feelings don’t ever completely go away. But they get better love ?? I still want out of this life thing so much but it’s not fair that stupid society and stupid people drive us to points where we think we’re not good enough.
I don’t know how to get rid of that feeling but I do know how to get rid of them…pack up and run.run away to a completely different place where you know nothing and start over.
Don’t take your life babe, run from the life you have now and start a new one somewhere else love ??