I cant do this

I just can’t keep waiting for something to happen. I think if my cousin doesn’t visit this summer, I’m done with it all. To hell with life. This world is fucked and they don’t need me. If they wanted me to stay, it would be clear. The light is gone because of me and I’m not spending another six years looking for another one. History won’t repeat itself again because I have control and I’m gonna use it in the way I should have when this started. All I need is one thing and I can just disappear for good. That’s all I need. That’s all I’ll ever need, one thing because I don’t believe in love or bliss anymore and this is what I need to do in order to finally be at peace. I can finally leave everyone alone, I’m just a burden and a hassle anyway. Remember, if there’s a disease, people try to destroy it. Well, I’m doing it for them. For Amber. For my family. For everyone from the war of 2012. For me. For anyone that I may just hurt in the future and for the people who deserve happiness more than me. For the whole world. 2009-2016 that’s my sentence and that’s that. I won’t suffer anymore.