What was it? What was the comforting thing that came to mind?
Love?
Love can save a damned soul, but it can’t touch a damaged mind.
Hope?
Hope can soothe an anxious mind, but can’t mend a broken heart.
Faith?
Faith can rescue a lost soul, but could never touch a realist.
Where am I going with this? I’m gonna be real honest here. I don’t know.
Anything.
I don’t. Fucking. Know. Don’t know where I’ll be tomorrow let alone in a few years. Don’t know how I’m going to make it that far. Don’t know who really cares. Don’t know why any of it matters.thats where I’m at tonight. Not sad. Not crying. Not anxious. Not heartbroken. Not lost. Just indifferent. Indifference is dangerous for me. Always leads to bad things. Maybe I’ll leave the country tonight. Or at least convince myself that I’ll do it soon. Maybe I’ll leave the world tonight. Who knows? Let’s see what happens.
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I would be super related if I din’t feel anxiety, chaos, tiredness or some other shit most of the time too. But I know this feeling too, for me its sometimes kind of refreshing, to not care…
Feeling nothing is terrible to me. I guess in some way I’ve become addicted to the pain. I prefer it over a black hole. I hate having nothing to cling to
A pillow. That’s what came to mind.
I need one. And a hug -_-
Pillow less and hug less? Oh dear. I have an extra one I use just for hugs. It’s yours now. Treat it nicely, It’s name is “lillow”.
Ah yayyyyy wow… My new best friend is a pillow… That’s sad
Sad? But it’s full of warm fluffy goodness.
Fair enough., how warm?
The nice thing about this pillow is the tighter you hug it, the warmer it becomes. Be careful, I have a few burns from over zealous hugging. Don’t worry though, you can hug it rather tight before you notice that your hair is on fire.
Whoa. I need that pillow in my life
Hey Sammi, you can talk to me if you need anything. You know how to contact me.