So I’ve kind of been playing with my Xacto knife threw out the day today (well technically yesterday and today) Like during school even…. Pressing it gently against my skin and dragging it, poking at my hands a bit…. Nothing yet that has done much damage, just a few scratches don’t really want to actually hurt myself in public, and I’m sure my professors would be a bit upset about me randomly bleeding (yes some of this was during class) So now I am playing with it again…. At around 1am, this I doubt is going to end well…. I normally don’t use anything that has a handle of any form, and I’m sort of curious about exactly what I could do with it…. 🙁 I really don’t want to do anything though, I see my counselor in like 13 hours, I would rather wait until after that…. But I’ve been looking forward to this all week, and just haven’t gotten around to it or thought better of it because of things like “Oh I will have to see my father to bring him his mail tomorrow” But now almost everything like that is out of the way ^_^ But I don’t think I can wait, maybe I will just do my arms that may do it. Argh I wish one of the two people I know was awake right now :/
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Please don’t go cutting up yourself. It doesn’t do you any good and you could wind up getting an infection or something like that. And not to mention you could wind up with scars that would be there for a long time and that would be kind off embarrassing.
try to find another way to vent your frustrations.
But I already have so many scars, like most of my forearms are scar tissue currently. -_-
Scars are permanent
Do or do not
there is no try
-yoda
Great now I’m back to vomiting 🙁 just foam this time though, really painful though :/
I understand what you’re feeling. I like to make myself some deep cuts here and there to prove myself that the pain is real and I’m still surviving.
I don’t really know if it’s bad like everybody says, but please know that you’re not alone. Sometimes that helps.
I know that it isn’t really an ideal thing, and I have been working on trying to stop…. I ended up with no deep cuts at all, just a few minor scratches…. Which is surprising as I even slept with my Xacto in bed with me. I had strange mixed feelings where I wanted to yet didn’t want to….