I suck at my new job…. First actual day and it went horribly, I wish I was dead…. I have no value I can’t do this, I will fail I know I will fail…. at least I don’t have to go back for awhile, at least it is part time…. This time I’ll fail because I am a failure that nobody wants, not because I have a complete breakdown and tear up my face and have to stop showing up. -_- I’ll probably be able to avoid that just doing 2-3 days per week, which is good.
Still after just 6 hours I feel like dying, I made so many small mistakes, I’m a failure. It just reminds me of this, it isn’t worth the money that I got for it, it’s a large amount of money, far more than I’m used to having even for an entire month for just 6 hours of my time…. But I just fall apart as soon as I get to my car, I was planning on shopping after work today but I couldn’t I just wanted to go home and curl up and die. Sadly I’m still alive.