There are people in the house but i may still try to hang myself. Im trying to think of a place to do it in this house. I hit someone’s car earlier and i dont even know how the insurance situation will work. My car isn’t even technically registered properly and i share insurance with my family. Im beyond sick of being alive. This is a final straw sort of thing. Today has been hopeless and pointless. I can’t get out of my own way and im tired of living. Studying the coroner reports it takes about 15 minutes
Edit: the 2 best places are the bathrooms. My mom is sleep my sister is not. If she stays downstairs I’ll use the more convenient upstairs one if she does the opposite so will I. Im waiting patiently and hoping it works ive attempted this way before and it obviously hasnt been successful.
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Hey!! How long have you felt this way??
Talk to me.
The car situation sounds like the kind of worrying thing that’ll get sorted out in the end. Don’t let it tip you over the edge.
If you really want to end things then take the time to plan it out properly. While doing that you may find that you start to think differently. This is not a decision you want to make while emotionally triggered by a mishap.
Its an unreliable method. I want to die so bad. Ive been suicidal my whole life. Last week i was trying scouted a bridge to jump off of. Its not big enough on its own. I need another method. Im only here due to lack of reliable method
Well, obviously ‘no methods’, but I gather some are more reliable than others. Then there’s the potential injuries if you survive. And the impact the method will have on others.
If you’re really that set on it, take the time to plan it out fully. Think of it as your last project. Do it right.
Knowing that you’re going to go might take the pressure off a bit. And you might find you want to live after all. But if not you can go calmly, with as little pain or distress caused to others as possible.
The plan is now work my way up the nerve to get a gun and then blow my brains out jumping off of the aforementioned bridge.
Sounds kind of messy/dramatic, but if that’s how you want to go then I hope it brings you the peace you’re looking for.
I’m sorry you’re at that point, as from reading your posts it sounds like you’re someone who deserves a good life.
Thanks you do too