Well spank my ass can call me Bi-polar Charley lol. Pretty girls can move to the front of the line of course. LOL
Seriously. Here is my situation. I have had some doctors call me Bi-polar. Other Doctors have labeled me Schizophrenic. Me I really dont care what they call it or label it… but I can tell you my situation. I can bounce from being really happy to suddenly depressed. I an bounce from Being low key and relaxed to High anxiety and well this seems to be the case no matter what is going on in my life. Like right now. My life is actually really really good. I have been traveling and visiting friends and family and now I have a place to stay by the ocean and I have extra money to spend and nice food to eat and just about everything is going well. But even though things are going well. I still can have bought’s of depression and bought’s of anxiety and suicidal thoughts and of death. So > well the issues makes me realize that I am really Bi-polar and schizophrenic. And that brings me some extra grief… because if I cant even be happy when things are going well.. then well that just plane sucks. lol
I mean > why the hell cant I just enjoy things like normal people. Why cant I just relax and be of sound mind. Why cant I enjoy the good times when they come and chill and not worry. But I do. I worry about everything. Even when things are going right I think about all the things that might go wrong and it ruins my time.
My mind bounces from good to bad….from happy to sad… from relaxed to high anxiety… and well. sometimes I wish I could just turn off the bad thoughts and the negative emotions and just live care free and happy dam it. But I cant seem to do it. Not for too long at least.
I can be happy > really happy for a short time… but then something always comes around to trigger the anxiety and the depression and then the mood swings come.
YES, I am on medication.. but the medication seems to make me tired all the time and then I feel like sleeping all the time and that is no good because I cant be productive. I think I need that dam spanking.
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I cannot diagnose you, of course, but I see nothing in your post that describes bipolar or schizophrenia. Maybe their diagnoses are based on somethimg you didn’t mention…..or maybe you need another opinion. I have been misdiagnosed.
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Yeah I guess….. the mood swings from happy to sad and the sudden onslaught of anxiety that comes and goes….like and up and down roller coaster daily for me is why I have been diagnosed this way. Who knows. But I wish I could just get happy with no anxiety and stay that way.
It sounds like these swings happen quickly, though, and anxiety is different from mania. Again, not trying to diagnose. I just know from personal experience that doctors will sometimes pick a diagnosis they think is close enough.
i would spank you but OMG! we might enjoy it!!! ha ha! can you see that!!1 yeah i little to the left!!! i’m joking but, we think a lot a like, why can’t life be perfect? it can’t, but! we can dream! really that’s what we got dreams! accept dreams! dreams are more realistic than reality. dreams are what keeps us going.
Yeah I have lived out many many of my dreams. I guess I need to keep adding to the list so I can keep going. I need a new Revised bucket list!! Ya thats the ticket!!
that a boy! drop the bucket list lingo! things to accomplish are more like it, and i’ll do the same 🙂
I do the same things, so for all I know I’m bipolar too.
I’ll still spank you if you want.
Should I use something soft like a feather duster, or something kinky like the entire chicken?
Let me know.
Maybe Hazy will loan us a chicken.
P.S. best post title ever.
I second the kudos for the post title.
yeah use a fulll chicken. that would be really cool. lol