So…. Today I guess was fairly good…. I think there may be a mild problem…. My counselor sort of talked me into maybe trying Pokemon go (although there were barriers there, or otherwise I would have been already possibly) so basically I got myself a $20 pre-paid phone (don’t worry I didn’t/am not going to activate it) to use essentially as a tablet (using my phone as a mobile hotspot (unlimited data plans are nice actually)) and that runs the game perfectly fine…. Now the main problem is that I kind of get a bit too serious about mmo’s…. I kind of thought that this may not be the case with one that is gps based and requires actual changing of physical location to find success…. But no…. Started 4 days ago, and already basically at level 15 (1.3k xp off, which is nothing when just short of 100k xp (level 15 occurs at 100K total xp)) so yeah, there’s that…. I will be level 15 probably about 10-20 minutes into my next walk…. So yeah, I’ve already caught up to my closest friend (who has been playing since release occurred in our area) and seemingly have caught up to where most of the casual (if casual is the right word, normal may be a better word) players are at…. In 4 days…. I kind of knew I would probably be progressing faster than most, but didn’t imagine this fast…. but I’ve walked 14 miles in the past 2 days (the first two days I didn’t really do much playing, just did a bit from home and what I could during travel (had to go to a pool party (which I will probably complain about soon, I hate pool parties) and then sunday I had to spend with family as always) so I gained most of that xp in 2 days (I think by the end of sunday I was only at around 10K total) So faster than expected…. But yeah I for some reason decided to go on a 7(ish) mile walk daily now (two way trip) as I found a location near my school that’s fairly isolated (I don’t like being around people or on a phone in public) and has a decent number of pokestops :/ This may be a problem…. -_- I even want to increase that too, I kind of want to go twice per day, if not more…. if my closest friend was willing to drive me over and drop me off (or if busses ran out there) and was also willing to pick me up from where ever I eventually become too tired to continue walking at, he’d probably find me well into the neighboring town (they touch) which would be about 30-40 miles of walking…. -_-
I guess that 14 miles of walking in the past two days really isn’t a bad thing…. My counselor wanted me to exercise more…. But I feel like the reason behind the walking may actually be bad…. But my friend did also promise to spend more time with me if I started playing, and so far he had followed threw and went on a short walk with me earlier today (no that’s not counted towards that 14 mile total, I walked 7 miles after that on my own (after class), it was a casual walk, spent most of the time not moving was annoying wasn’t good for egg hatching, nor spinning stops, which were the two most ideal things for me to have been doing at that moment, sitting at a lure module wasn’t exactly appealing to me since I am always out of pokeballs, and looping threw about 12 stops seemed better (there was a 12 stop setup where we were that we could loop around in a bit over 5 minutes and it would work well) grrrr I’m no fun probably….
welp other than that today I went to class and slightly panicked when I realized that I have not yet done anything, and there are only 3 weeks left for me to do anything…. but luckily it is a thing I’m fairly profeciant in, and can do rather quickly, I think I will go to the lab tomorrow to start it (easier to work at school as less distractions (by lab I mean that it’s a computer lab, not like a lab)) so should get most of it done in the probably 2-3 hours I will spend there…. the professor may lecture me about how I should do things on time again (yet he doesn’t reduce grade for late work…. so why would I do it “on time”? O.o)
sorry I got rambly about weird things that I kind of feel horribly ashamed and embarrassed about.
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People get addicted to MMO’s. Just like any addiction you have to try to keep it under control. There are plenty of stories of people letting games take over their lives. I remember in one MMO I played I made a new character and had 5 days played on it in a week, getting it leveled.
Maybe you could ride a bike the 7 miles. Does anyone have a bike you could borrow/steal? Pokemon trainers are supposed to ride bikes anyway.
I have several bikes, they are just slightly in disrepair, but no I don’t really want to be riding a bike while playing a game on my phone…. that seems like a horrible idea…. -_- I can’t even do the walking thing during that…. and there is much stopping too to allow my phone to catch up (if the area is in a spot without strong service (which is most of the trail I walk while alone) (I should probably specify most of the reason I walk the trail is just to collect pokemon (mostly pidgeys are what I desire for lucky egg mass evolutions) and it has enough pokestops along the way to keep supplies high enough to allow for it)) But I could probably ride the bike there from my school, and save a little bit of gas (it’s only like 5 miles from my school so not a lot of wasted gas…. but I guess that is 35 miles per week, so about a gallon and a half of gas…. But yes either way I should ride a bike anyway, to be a real pokemon trainer ^_^
I tend to have a problem with mmo’s…. They don’t even have to be good either…. Games that try to be “Spreadsheet the game” can even eat entire days of my time at once :/
But I see my counselor tomorrow (tomorrow as in over 24 hours from now, is 2am currently so have today to get threw) and I’ll see how he feels about this…. I feel like he won’t be too upset since I wouldn’t have spent that time being productive anyway (honestly I am hardly ever productive….)
If nothing else it’s a nice distraction, keeps your mind off negative thoughts, and you are getting some exercise. I imagine your therapist will be happy. Probably just say the same thing, don’t let the game take over your life.
Lol “spreadsheet the game.”
Those evony type games are pretty awful too. I spent way to much time on evony and hated the game for most of the time i played it. One thing that always kept me playing even bad MMO’s was chatting with your guild/alliance. Even when all I wanted to do was complain about how much the game sucked I would still login to talk to people. Or quit the game but then end up going back a month later just to see how everyone is doing. Need to make an SP MMO.
LOL yes Evony…. that was about 2 years of my life…. Feeding neg 50mil was one of the best phases of my life -_- (I think the highest I pushed up to (legitimately) was like neg 68mil…. I don’t really understand how one could go much higher without multi accounts and botting….) it took me like half a year to finally quit LOL….
Yeah chatting is nice, Evony was actually my first experience with having people to talk to which was most of the reason why I probably would pour all of the time I could into it. But also I probably would have anyway, as I kind of like being better at something than other people and MMO’s are a great place for me to do that, as they are mostly fair and just take time devotion…. and I have time since I am a failure at life ^_^
Yea most MMO’s are pretty fair. I hate the ones that are “free” but actually pay to win. If you don’t pay you just get steamrolled by the guys that spend hundreds every month to be better in a video game. Evony had some of that, but evony just ended up being who could program their army of bots the best. I would rather just play a game that charges a monthly fee and keeps the playing field level. Games like WoW and EQ2 were fun but I was never a huge fan of raising so those always got boring at max level. They are a nice escape from reality though.
I like the monthly fee games a lot more as they do tend to be more fair, but I also do like games with real money (player to player) markets (either legitimate or not) as it is nice actually being able to pay for your monthly subscription fee just by playing, or if it’s a pay to win game to get the money for that ^_^ Pay to win has never bothered me that much, as I tend to be able to work past that just due to raw time devotion…. and also I normally am willing to pay to win a bit too eventually…. And yeah the bots ^_^ I had a cluster of compies that I used just to run bots on the 12 or so accounts I had :/ I mostly just love games that offer level grinding, and gear/whatever grinding…. So WoW and what has you I would love, but I have managed to stay away from (don’t want to start) pokemon go I kind of like just due to how grindy it is too, but I can’t quite get as obsessed with it, as I can only spend maybe 6 hours per day on it due to my sleep schedule and park hours…. and the fact that I get tired…. But with WoW I could easily spend 12+ hours per day…. On some days I could spend well over 20 hours on it :/
Hm, a Pokemon Go fanatic… You probably have a cute butt! That aside, have you ever played Runescape?
I don’t has a butt though :O it is so tiny…. I essentially just have a tail bone -_- And yes sitting does sort of hurt 🙁
I have played a bit of Runescape, but since I was playing evony at that time I didn’t get that into it…. I was much more casual with it than I normally am with games.
But my legs though…. they are nice…. always have been…. for some reason my thighs are massive (combined they are larger around then my waist is :/) and my calfs are also fairly large…. I’m not sure if I like it or not, as it is kind of a more masculine feature, but also it does sort of contribute to making me appear more feminine (as it helps with the entire bodyshape thing) So I guess as long as I just would keep them covered I could look very feminine, but as soon as I reveal them, they probably are too muscular to appear feminine anymore…. :/
Hm, no butt, huh… Are you Asian if you don’t mind me asking? Being Asian myself I know how painful sitting can be with no padding… I still bet $1,000 that you’re fuckingly adorable!
I never got into Runescape despite having some few irl friends who played it. I can never get into games even if it is something fun. In other words if you are a hardcore gamer, I will never be able to relate to you. Currently I’m playing Gal-Gun since it seemed like an easy game.
No I’m not Asian, just a standard boring old white person (mostly Saxon), But I have a fairly small build (am 140lbs at 5’10” :/ on a good day) My limbs are longer than they really should be compared to my body, and my fingers are also stupidly long (twice as long as some peoples) so I’m just wiry…. Not a lot of fat on me, so not much there to make a butt…. Lean is a nice word to describe me, but frail is the one most people go with now…. I used to be properly lean back when I worked out obsessively…. Hey maybe I’ll get lean again ^_^ I actually was pre happy with my body back then…. Never managed to get massive bulging muscles, but I had really noticeable muscle tone. Also was fairly strong too, apparently some peoples muscles just don’t really become massive bulges as easily…. -_-
I can get into games so easily…. Games are one thing that I live for, they tend to be one thing that does actually make me want to wake up tomorrow (sometimes) I love gaming of all forms…. I’m probably one of the more hardcore gamers that people are able to find (not the most so, but probably in the top 10% of hardcore gamers(Kind of like youngster joey’s rattata 😀 (Although I don’t remember him specifying an exact percentage just “top percentage”))) I also love creating games, and a lot of my time goes into that…. Is one thing I would really love to be able to do with my life (and get paid to do it…. but that’s unlikely to happen)
But yeah, I went on another 7-8ish mile walk today, was fun…. gained around 20K xp (which is about one level now at the point I’m at, just a few k short of 16 now (I’ve also now passed my friend by a few thousand xp now 😀 )) So I feel okay with this, at this rate I should be hitting 22 (which seems to be a soft cap) with-in the next week and a half (as I will probably amass enough pokemon to fill a lucky egg with evolutions which is about 40-60K xp depending on how fast my phone wants to run) Also I was able to collect on 3 gyms today (knocked down 4 but lost one before my collection cool down was over and didn’t want to walk back 2 miles to contest it again) so I’m happy with my progress so far ^_^ and it will only get easier to knock down gyms from now on (still no pokemon above 1K CP…. will be easier once I start hitting that 1600 mark or so that I find at a lot of gyms)
Oh cool Gal-Gun is a rail shooter…. that’s not a genra of game that you see much anymore ^_^ (outside of arcades) they can be quite fun sometimes (and if well made)
Good lord, you and my ex would get along so well since you’re both hardcore gamers… I guess that means I’m a freak since I’m actually extremely turned off by that. It’s painful never being able to enjoy anything with a lover…
A video game designer is a cool dream. Which genre would you focus on: horror, action/adventure, sports, music, rpg? Before my depression really got bad, I wanted to make horror video games that didn’t rely on cheap cliches and had a deep story. Sadly as my depression and apathy worsened, I eventually stopped being able to be afraid of anything beyond slight nervousness.
I bet you would make a great Slenderman for Halloween and look good with a swimmer’s build. Personally I never liked huge muscles, I always found it to be ugly and almost deformed.
So who is your favorite original pokemon including Mew?
LOL it seems like a huge turn off for most people, which makes sense…. I probably would have long stretches of time where I would completely ignore an s/o if I ever had one….
I don’t want to be a videogame designer I want to be a game designer, I don’t want to stick to just videogames, my favoured genra of game is more of a ccg style of game (collectable card game (think hearthstone, infinity wars ext.)) but yeah I probably will mostly be forced to stick with video games as physical games are kind of cycling out of popularity, and are expensive to get into production. But as far as video games go I would probably mostly stick to story driven RPGs. It sounds horrible not being able to be afraid of anything :/
For holloween I tend to dress up in some type of suit (sometimes with a trenchcoat) something that makes me look unnaturally thin (which I arguably am on somedays) and wear a mask, normally some type of gasmask…. Normally a creepy gasmask like one of the pmg’s or maybe even a gp-5…. Normally russian (or russian styled masks)…. for some reason the russians where really good at making their gasmasks creepy…. which I guess most gasmasks are anyway…. that’s sort of like slenderman, just completly different…. and doesn’t require a morphsuit (which look horrible) although wearing a morthsuit under this wouldn’t be a bad idea…. would make the mask more comfortable (since my hair wouldn’t get as tangled in it) and normally I’ll wear a nice hat too…. it tends to actually terrify the local children ^_^ which is my goal…. I’ve always sort of wanted bulging muscles…. as I’ve been curious what it would feel like…. I am not sure if I like the aesthetic much or not though…. But I do kind of like the idea of having an s/o that had massive bulging muscles, because I feel like it would make me feel so safe to be cuddled by them :3 although as far as my preferences for people aesthetically I tend to prefer more gender neutral appearances.
And Gengar…. Gengar isn’t just my favourite first gen pokemon, it’s my favourite pokemon period…. Always will be Gengar too ^_^ I love Gengar…. Gengar is the greatest 😀
To be honest, I don’t think Slenderman is scary but a gasmask Slender would be cool. I agree gasmasks can be creepy but I think a plague doctor is scarier. I mean you have a mask shaped like a raven’s beak that was specifically designed to combat the Black Plague. How morbid and cool is that! Scaring people is fun. Also, if you lived in California or Florida, you would be perfect as a scare actor at Universal Studios’ Halloween Horror Nights. As the name implies your job is to scare people.
Haha, in terms of body appearance, I’m so not your type. Due to becoming depressed at a very young age, I’m obese and can’t motivate myself to exercise. In terms of facial appearance, my face could look feminine with long hair but with short hair I look really boyish.
Wow, you just scream innocent uke. If you don’t know gay Japanese cartoon speak, an innocent uke is the bottom that is so extremely cute it’s sickening. They like to wear cute animal ears, want to be protected and can sometimes bake cakes.
I’m not so sure they would pick me though, there are people much scarier than I am…. And yes a plague doctor’s mask would be pre cool too ^_^ but hard to find…. (and technically a gas mask would protect against the black plague (with a proper filter)) I mostly commonly go with gasmasks just because I kind of collect them…. no idea why though….
I really don’t have a type LOL, I’m very asexual, which is annoying…. although if you mean towards just what I think looks good (not attractive though) then maybe, heavier people can look pre good…. The feminine/masculine face thing is a plus…. But I guess if just finding something aesthetically pleasing qualifies as having a type, then my type would be medium sized people (both height and build) with no definite body tones or features that are related to either gender (no bulges in places, or curves, or massive muscles, or anything like that) and normally either long, or mid length hair…. (and of course the no specific features things kind of eliminates facial hair too) Mostly I just find people that it is impossible to take a stab at their gender to be aesthetically pleasing…. I wish I could look like that, but I really can’t as I have a large forehead :/
And I had to look up what an innocent uke is, and I kind of do fit most of those descriptions, however I kind of assume that they probably are innocent though…. I really am not too horribly innocent (like how innocent can somebody who cuts themselves be?) But the other bits sound a lot like me, I need somebody to protect me and tell me to be happy and control me (in a good way) and probably hurt me a little bit -_-
Oh yeah, and adding onto what I think looks good for people…. Of course revealing clothing ruins everything and I dislike it…. I prefer my people to be covered in loose baggy clothing that hides most of their body features…. Normally long sleeves and pants too…. I actually really like the way that sleeves that cover up to mid hand look :/
You would be in a costume as a scare actor, you know… Either with make-up or a rubber mask, too. I think your lanky frame would be good for Slenderish characters or maybe even the stilt walkers.
I’m asexual, too. I think mine is caused by intense apathy making me numb to physical sensation… Which extremely sucks. I prefer baggy clothes but I’m not fond of long sleeves. I do like wearing windbreaker jackets in the summer, though.
Okay, you sound like a mix between innocent uke and badass uke. That is understandable. Hm, would you be into having your penis bitten (Not off, of course)? You sound like someone I would 110% love to have as a boyfriend.
Hmmmm never used stilts they seem hard to use….
I have no idea why I’m asexual, I always have been…. and I wear nothing but long sleeves now -_- although that’s not because I like how they look :/
Ummmm that’s a really strange question…. but possibly, I would lean towards no though (because that’s kind of gross for both sides involved…. people eat with their mouths) But possible because I know I would be into someone causing my genitals pain, but I would feel like a bite wouldn’t really be enough pain.
Like I have past posts about masturbation which would answer all your questions about how fucked up I am when it comes to that sort of thing :/
I probably would be much more normal and much happier if I was female though….
I know you’re not the touchy feel type so I guess that means you wouldn’t give your boyfriend a blowjob (sucking penus) than? Pity, I bet you would look so cute giving one, though.
I’m not sure where you would be categorized in terms of gender. You say you think you would be happier as a girl but you also think you would miss being male. Regardless of your gender classification, I would still date you as you are right now. Sorry for the cliche but you definitely seem like a broken angel.
I wonder if pokemon go would work in the middle of a national forest. Like, wander so far (but not so far as to loose cell reception) into the woods, and poof! There’s a pikachu! Or something. That’d be weird. Maybe I’ll test that this weekend.
It wouldn’t work for me probably (Have Tmobile, so I can promise that my service wouldn’t be good enough to allow that for me at large national forests/parks) But from what I understand of how the game works, it would work just fine as long as you get service, since the pokemon spawning I think is based off of the number of people using the app in the area, so it would probably be less likely to run into pokemon but you would…. If you used an inscense then you’d find them as often as you normally would with the incense (1 per minute/200 meters if moving (at least as far as my understanding goes)) would be a nice place to hatch eggs out though ^_^
If you played on an airplane, would pokemon whiz by at hundreds of miles per hour? o.o
Yeah, if you can tell, I haven’t played the game before. This gal at work who drives a forklift was playing it all day the other day. She kept going, “I CAUGHT A WILD ANIMAL ON THE PIPES!!!! HAH!” Everybody thought she was talking about a rat or something.
LOL It would be hard to play on an airplane, as it’s hard enough to play on the highway (pokemon go by so quickly, and once you move far enough away they disappear) And I do hope she knows their names, and wasn’t saying “wild animal” as that annoys me…. the people that are playing that don’t even know what pokemon are -_- (I am a huge pokemon fan, and grew up with pokemon…. so I take it personally when you don’t know what a Ponyta is(Damn kids in the park called it a fire horse…. It’s not even a horse…. *sigh*)) but I guess I am happy that they are now learning at least, that’s good ^_^