What happened to me? Why did this happen to me? I don’t know anymore. My anchors on reality are starting to slip. I want someone to help me, and yet I don’t want anyone knowing about it. I don’t know what I want to do with this life. I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know where my happiness lies. I think happiness has left me for good. This broken and devastated world has no place for me. I don’t know how much longer I can keep this going. Maybe if I just didn’t care about anything anymore then my problems would vanish. Maybe I could vanish with my problems. Maybe it would be better to put an end to everything… or perhaps just go into a coma. Maybe it would be better if someone knew? But then my weakness would be exposed. Nobody should see my weakness. Nobody should know. They would ruin everything even further. They don’t need to know. Nobody needs to know. I’ll take care of it myself… That’s right… I’ll take care of it.
I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.
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Sometimes it happens to the best out there. Its ok to feel depressed and confused. Is that whats going on? Maybe you should stop caring what other people may think and open up to them. It’ll help. Humans are social beings, were are not meant to be alone or deal with struggling feelings all on our own. We need each other. You are human, so let those close to you help you.
Well, if you are afraid of people seeing your weaknesses, and using them against you, then going to a therapist is the best option. As such, you get someone to help you, without the possibility of being hurt. I also agree with secret me, most people can’t exist alone without there being severe consequences. Just find people that you trust as much as possible, and open up to them. The support they can possibly provide far outweighs the potential damage they can do by knowing your “weaknesses”.