The thought, the truth, the fact, that I can choose to end my life at whatever moment I choose, is soothing. Nobody can decide this for you or even hold you back from deciding if you wanna live or die. Setting a date for killing myself, gives me peace of mind. It gets me calmer, reminding myself how I have the highest power in my own life.
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If thinking this way really helps you, then by all means, keep doing it
So true! I have those thoughts right now in my head, and whenever I start going down the “rabbit hole”, the thought that it will be over soon cheers be back up. I have a time period and way all set up. Its ironic really, how the thoughts surrounding my suicidal death is what’s keeping me happy in life and actually living. Your life is all yours. Noone but you has a say in it. Hope you find peace 😉
just avoid getting into situations where you’re forced to commit suicide(or something worse) when you still don’t feel like it.
I have read your post and know how you feel; there is a feeling of happiness I can’t put my finger on but for me knowing where and how feels good not worked the time scale out at this point as there are things I am still working on, you never know I might just find the right people to help me with life.
Just a word of warning. I spent years thinking exactly as you described. I could end it at any time and that gave me peace from the fear of being trapped. However it can also be a double edged sword. I became apathetic and really on the fence about living or dying so I ended up choosing neither. I was in a sort of limbo, I felt that life could end at any time so why invest in it. Essentially I wasn’t really living a full life because I was relying on the idea of suicide too heavily. Not sure if you all would understand what I mean, I think you have to experience it for some time to see it.