The air is warming up again
Hey everyone, it’s been a while.
Today is the last day of the reason of my existence, I’m crying so hard right now. What will I do without it? It’s literally the reason why I didn’t kill myself last August 15.
But I won’t die just yet, I’ll go to a con with a beautiful cosplay in October. I’ll meet some friends and have a great time there. I’ll eat good things, I’ll have fun, and I’ll breathe a warm breeze.
Then it’ll be over, nothing else will matter. I’ll be free to kill myself any day. No ties, no regrets (well maybe one, but it’s impossible to do something about it).
I just can’t stop crying. I’m so alone.
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Jesus loves ye all ??? No need to fear anymore because God’s love is here ??? Rejoice and be delivered from these demons of suicide , self hate , infirmitys , depression the whole lot ! Jesus can deliver ye ! Call upon his name and you will be saved ?????
Don’t listen to that voice that tells you to kill yourself because that’s the demon of suicide putting self hatred and guilty thoughts into your head to make you so depressed causing you to end up killing yourself ! What ever sin you did go straight to Jesus Christ and confess it , repent of it with a sincere heart and Jesus will forgive you ! Jesus wants you to live ! Jesus will never tell you kills yourself that’s the enemy’s voice ! Rebuke it , get back on your feet and say I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me ! The demon of suicide attacked me one time causing me to put a wire around my neck but thanks God I’m still here and have learnt to keep your friends close but your enemies closer ! Know your enemy ! Your enemy hates you and wants you to die but Jesus loves you and wants you to live ! I had quiet a few attacks from the demons since being a Christian but thank God who is greater in me than the Satan who is in the world ! God always gets me back up and makes me more stronger as what dosent kill you , will make you stronger! So be watchful don’t be ignorant of the dark rulers ! They exist the demons exist , don’t act like they don’t or ignore that they exist because that’s when you become an easy target not knowing their devices ! You should acknowledge them so then you can rebuke them in Jesus name so you can then serve God to the fullest without distractions from the dark rulers lurking about ! Otherwise 1 minute your happy next your sad next your depressed next your doubtful next you want to kill yourself next you hate yourself next you love yourself … Your up down up down not having a clue what the heck is going on ! The fact is were in a war, not with flesh and blood but with the dark rulers of this present evil world ! And they have their own names and own characters ! So put on the full armour of God so you can stand against their tactics …..
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I (Jesus) have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. “
What’s that one regret that you mentioned?
And I’m sorry that you feel so alone kamidaka. You don’t deserve to feel that way.