No title…just how I feel…lost, hurt, alone, ABANDONED and BETRAYED

There was a time in my life that I would have looked in the mirror, seen what I now once again see and run.  Fly away…escape in flight, run back into the night, where in the end, I have always belonged.

Time is that ever horrible tick of deep space; that reminds me that I am worthless and nothing will ever change that.  That there is only one path in the end.  I’ve seen all the roads and no matter what, change will never come, for there is only one road in the end to be had.

Once again, the clock starts the countdown…for I now, completely understand my worth within this miserable life.  I am never where I want to be.  I am nothing more than property people pass around as I wait for somebody to hold.

My heartbeat stills in the night; as I once again, turn my face to the stars and wish for nothing more than to fall into the sky.

Eons ago, I was an accident created by something greater than my understanding….not a God, nor an alien but a cosmic chance…something we couldn’t understand.  Stardust, a pinch of gold, iron and stone as I was formed.  Delicate as glass but stronger than most mortal men.  I’ve stood the test of time.  I’ve given all I have, as I settled for something that would never be.  

I did not get myself here all alone.  All I see is the cloudy shades of gray as my world slowly darkens as all the light, is taken from me…as I let love go.

Life is strangely symphonic as it is ironic.  Did I make enough sacrifices along the way?  I’ve given away all my love in chance of a dream settled deep within hopes….  

-KR