I often wonder if becoming addicted to drugs will ease my pain and heartache, even a little. I’ve never done drugs my whole life, never wanted too. But people on drugs seem to be more focused on their next fix than their past. To stop thinking about my ex for five minutes would be in a way a much needed break. It’s almost been two years and every minute of everyday from my first thought to my last I’m missing her and thinking about her. Drugs, although expensive may be a nice out. Hell must addicts end up od’ing too. I don’t know if that was the purpose of your post, but that’s what it moved me to open up about…..
Addiction doesn’t “take away” the pain, all it does is repress it, and it will cause you to flip out and hurt yourself or others, because of all the negative feelings you’ve been bottling up inside you for so long. You’ll become increasingly self-destructive the more you rely on addictions; so instead, it’s far more beneficial to try to work through whatever is bothering you (whether that’s through therapy with a counselor, or self-reflection… even reading thoughtful online articles can help).
@CRA2015
I can understand missing your ex, but what you should do is focus on rebuilding your life for you. Do things you’ve always dreamed of. Maybe go traveling, or even quit your current job (or request a transfer) and move to another country… or try something you can do every day, like working out and eating healthy so that you can look and feel great… or start some interesting hobby you didn’t make time for in the past. (Maybe even create things you can sell and make a profit from your efforts!)
You won’t stop being miserable until you make positive changes in your life that you can feel good about – and doing drugs is absolutely NOT a positive change. Rather than destroying yourself with drugs or alcoholism or self-harm or any other unhealthy addiction, self-improvement is the path to mental recovery. “Happiness and unhappiness is a state of the mind.”
i know… i already had a little trouble about it.. the girls in my class have noticed and they are curious about it and they talk about me, i don’t know what. I’ve started doing it everyday, twice or thrice. arms ,legs etc. but i wanted to stop and i did for three days. but then i started losing my mind and i couldn’t even stand a minute more without cutting. i cut behind my neck. it was kinda reliefing and now i have to put sorta scarf around my neck so no one would see. i try cutting in places where they won’t see. i did try to stop myself but i just lose it when i don’t cut.
i just start throwing things down.. tearing pages from my books.. i scream , no obviously i can’t scream in the house so i lock myself in the closet and stuff the hanging clothes in my mouth and then scream so no one hears. and there’s this bad headache i have at that time and i can’t stop crying etc. and if i don’t find anything to cut, i break a glass from the kitchen.
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I often wonder if becoming addicted to drugs will ease my pain and heartache, even a little. I’ve never done drugs my whole life, never wanted too. But people on drugs seem to be more focused on their next fix than their past. To stop thinking about my ex for five minutes would be in a way a much needed break. It’s almost been two years and every minute of everyday from my first thought to my last I’m missing her and thinking about her. Drugs, although expensive may be a nice out. Hell must addicts end up od’ing too. I don’t know if that was the purpose of your post, but that’s what it moved me to open up about…..
Addiction doesn’t “take away” the pain, all it does is repress it, and it will cause you to flip out and hurt yourself or others, because of all the negative feelings you’ve been bottling up inside you for so long. You’ll become increasingly self-destructive the more you rely on addictions; so instead, it’s far more beneficial to try to work through whatever is bothering you (whether that’s through therapy with a counselor, or self-reflection… even reading thoughtful online articles can help).
@CRA2015
I can understand missing your ex, but what you should do is focus on rebuilding your life for you. Do things you’ve always dreamed of. Maybe go traveling, or even quit your current job (or request a transfer) and move to another country… or try something you can do every day, like working out and eating healthy so that you can look and feel great… or start some interesting hobby you didn’t make time for in the past. (Maybe even create things you can sell and make a profit from your efforts!)
You won’t stop being miserable until you make positive changes in your life that you can feel good about – and doing drugs is absolutely NOT a positive change. Rather than destroying yourself with drugs or alcoholism or self-harm or any other unhealthy addiction, self-improvement is the path to mental recovery. “Happiness and unhappiness is a state of the mind.”
NotBreathing, what are you addicted to?
i cut..
Please don’t do it, if people see marks they will judge you and you will suffer even more
i know… i already had a little trouble about it.. the girls in my class have noticed and they are curious about it and they talk about me, i don’t know what. I’ve started doing it everyday, twice or thrice. arms ,legs etc. but i wanted to stop and i did for three days. but then i started losing my mind and i couldn’t even stand a minute more without cutting. i cut behind my neck. it was kinda reliefing and now i have to put sorta scarf around my neck so no one would see. i try cutting in places where they won’t see. i did try to stop myself but i just lose it when i don’t cut.
How do you lose it?
i just start throwing things down.. tearing pages from my books.. i scream , no obviously i can’t scream in the house so i lock myself in the closet and stuff the hanging clothes in my mouth and then scream so no one hears. and there’s this bad headache i have at that time and i can’t stop crying etc. and if i don’t find anything to cut, i break a glass from the kitchen.