applause (not)

Welp mostly just checking in…. but meh, things are okay I guess…. doing my school stuffs…. My friend actually took up my interest, which is a really weird interest honestly…. But it is quite fun, and apparently a decently entertaining party trick, and is developed to a point where I can actually use it as such…. My friend can use it as such, and I am mildly more skilled than him at it, so it should probably work out…. Just a matter of confidence…. :/ but that is a thing I lack, maybe I should just try it out around more people build up that confidence, either way I quite enjoy it…. and can improve as he points out weak points which is nice…. But mostly I’ve been fine, almost cut myself a bit ago, because of a pre stupid reason but that’s fine…. Was just mildly upset about not seeing my friend for awhile and him seeming uninterested in seeing me, was like 2 weeks but I saw him this mourning so everything is good now ^_^

I am mostly checking in, I mostly just wanted to talk to somebody and nobody is around right now…. Really if I don’t talk I likely will hurt myself, I am not very good at shifting from having fun to going back home because it feels horrible, just the difference in how I feel…. The pleasure that I experienced later makes my normal feelings almost unbearable, which always makes me worry when I go do something fun, as I know there is a chance that I may cut myself right after…. Oh yeah finally told my counselor that I stopped taking my medicine, he seemed okay with it, I am not certain if I mentioned that here already but there it is if I didn’t….

This is fairly short for me. I do hope that you all are having good days. ^_^