I’m not suicidal. But I am.
I have no desire to end my own life immediately. But I know I will be ending my life before I turn 30. I’m only 18 now, but the thought of reaching the big 3-0 terrifies me. Also, maybe people won’t care as much, as I won’t be a teenager or “young adult” anymore. Maybe I’ll be able to disappear off the face of the earth peacefully without anyone noticing.
I know I need to start destroying myself soon so that I don’t make it to 30, and I seem to have started by pushing away the people who care most…
I’m so confused how I can be so excited to start a new chapter in my life but feel the need to begin self-destruction.
Fight off your demons.
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Did you manage to get in contact with your acquaintance?
I did not, but I’m sure she will be back on and see. 🙂
Why are you suicidal?
I just have no desire to stay on this earth long enough to see the earth crumble into pieces and keep losing people to suicide. I might enjoy my next 4 years of university and freedom, but that will probably be it for me.
No other dreams, wishes?
Thrill seeking activities like sky-diving, bungee jumping, etc. I suppose I’d like to travel a bit as well. And I’d like to help others with their own lives, but I can accomplish all of that by 30.
Why seek thrills?
As close to death as I can get without actually dying.
what course are you going to do at university?
Possibly nursing, with hopes of becoming a flight nurse or trauma nurse.
UK?
United States, sadly. lol.
nursing is good, don’t kill yourself be a good nurse