That’s it. 50mg was enough to render my body… not mine.
I think I’m starting to understand why people abuse drugs. It works in a way similar to alchohol.
Imagine. Dissolved bits of the pill travelling around your capillaries. In this case, blocking your sodium channels and loosening up the muscles in your legs and everywhere else until you have no choice but to curl up in bed, you haven’t been this relaxed in a while, and you crave this sensation again…
Woke up this morning to an email from my amazing friend who has a heart big enough to send me a care package from Canada. I am so so touched by her gesture and want to return in kind. “Even sinners love those who love them” right?
I don’t know if I’ve ever been so alone in my life.
The five senses are but ways for our bodies to escape itself. And forget that the self is a selfish, existentially alone being.
That’s why sensory deprivation is such a horror. It brings the self into full realisation of that fact.
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but I do love her for such a caring act.