There is no respite for me. Even living alone, away from family, didn’t change much. My problem is authority. I just can’t stand being under a human being. It brings out such negative and sickening feelings. I am new to the job and haven’t been alloted work yet by department. So I literally do nothing all day. I just sit there and do whatever I want. AND STILL I feel sick and repulsive. Nobody tells me anything then what is the problem? Just the system, just the existence of a fixed pattern and me being part of it. I can’t stand it. No and never. Yesterday I fancied buying a can of petrol and burning that office.
Maybe I should return to making money online. I felt good in that.
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Are you seeing a therapist? Because sometimes the job isn’t the problem it’s our attitude towards it.
I’d hate for you to give up a good opportunity when you can just work through it with the right help. I hope that helps.