Feels like im missing something.. Im ready. Beyond ready. But i need to find it. The thing that’s missing. Stop this little itch in the back of my mind and the deoths of my heart. Burning in the pit of my stomach. Is it a what? A who? A wear? What the fuck is happening? I dont know where it came from. Jesus fucking christ this is strange.. Im so attached to something that i cant identify. Like leaving without seeing/finding/feeling this person/place/thing would be a crime punishable by.. Well.. Life. Ya know? I dunno. This is getting old already. Its always something..
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Sometimes an itch is enough reason to stay alive. If you feel there’s anything you’ve left undone, don’t leave this world until you do it (even if you have no idea what it is). This is the only chance you get.
What the hell am i supposed to do, salt? Its fucking me up. I have to figure it out
This is a thought that came to me yesterday while thinking of your dilemma. If I were to psychoanalyze your art, I would say every piece shares the same distinct quality. It is not reality. Even the realistic forms are blended with some strong element of fantasy or insanity. That tells me you’ll never be satisfied in a realistic or “sane” life. So now that we’ve disqualified half the paths in life, what’s left? Time to get batshit crazy?
Just tell me where to start, captain. I’m at a loss and my giveadamn is busted.
Total shutdown sometimes helps get my mind back on the tracks. Shut out the world for 24 hours straight (or more as necessary). Watch an I Dream of Jeannie marathon. Then do something totally mindless but productive like clean the place from top to bottom.
And that’s a load of horseshit. As I was typing it, it sounded stupid. I dunno about you but I’m sick of coping methods. Either I fly or I fall faster, but I think you & I both are tired of just hanging on.
I do not want to hang on………..in the end what do I have to hang on too??????????? Let mout, take me down….I want nothing but out.
^ me out….not mout