My best friend said I wasn’t “really” suicidal.
That if I really wanted to die then I’d have done it already, but I keep coming back. If it wasn’t painful then I’d kill myself in a heartbeat.
If I didn’t really want to die, then what have I been feeling since I was little?
Would you have preferred it if I had been successful?
I don’t want to feel any more pain, is that too much to ask when I do finally die? Does this disgusting cesspool of a person I call “me” not even deserve a painless death?
If I don’t want to die, then what is this desire for? Because it’s certainly not for life, happiness, nor help.
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People who make this comment have no clue what they’re talking about. They’re just parroting what they’ve heard. Ask your friend if he/she wants to be a millionaire. If the answer is yes then say “if you really wanted to be a millionaire you would have a million dollars already”.
This ^ is so FREAKING true.
TOO RIGHT ..– So many times I’ve heard -Yeah he/she took the EASY way out .. What is so easy about being depressed enough to want to think of ways to kill your own self .. What is so easy about tying a rope around your neck and stepping off that chair .. Or dropping the toaster in the bath tub for a bubble bath .. You only have to talk to any survivor on here – And there’s heaps .. They will give you comfort in the real truth about suicide .. You are a human and deserve the same things as everybody else .. – Except depression – no one deserves that shit ………………. A disgusting cesspool of a person I call “me” .. I know it’s easy to BUT – Try not to be too hard on your self ..
Yup, I love how people say it’s the easy way out yet it’s one of the hardest ways out. You think it’s easy to put that shotgun to your head and pull the trigger? Or to close your eyes and fall off that giant building while your heart is racing and you look down. Or to swallow that cyanide and know that in a few moments you’ll be in extreme agony.
People just don’t understand. They will in time. Just be patient with them. If this friend is worth having, they’ll listen eventually. Don’t lose sight of what’s really important, which is your stability and mental health.