Don’t Feel….

You don’t feel pain
Not at first
All you feel is betrayal
You can’t think
You can’t move
You can’t breath
You can’t scream
You can’t even cry
You want to but you can’t
Then when it’s done
All you can think is WHY ME!
You never feel clean
You cry all the time now
When you don’t you bleed
And the pain starts to settle in
And you can’t stop thinking
“I could have done more”
“I could have stopped it”
“It’s all my fault”
You hate yourself more
With every breath
You feel like it should be your last
That you are nothing
So you try to cut it out
To bleed away your pain
Just one more time
Its gunna be okay
I’ll go on with life
I have to for my friends/family
They don’t know what goes on
They don’t really see
They only know what I share
But they don’t know there’s more to my story
They don’t know what he did
My uncle that everyone loves
That everyone says he’s so nice
That could never do any wrong
They don’t know
He hurt me
They don’t know how!
They don’t know the pain
They can’t figure it out
They don’t see what’s so bad
But they don’t live in my hell
They don’t know its been years
Since I was truly happy
They don’t get me
No not really
They don’t know how it feels to be …
ME!